i was dating this girl (i am lesbian) we dated for around 5 months and i thought we were ok but then she dumped me because she didn't feel like she liked me more than friends, i was really sad but i believed i could push forward and through the depressive episode i was in and i stayed in the friend group for months happy but when i stayed the night with my ex and another friend i noticed that my ex was constantly on her laptop talking to someone for the majority of the time and i was a little confused and looked over her shoulder and found out that she was flirting and talking to my best friend (male) and then my ex confessed everything so that was how i found out she was dating my best friend from a week after we broke up and she just let me trust her and be friends with her whilst secretly dating my best friend and to rub salt in the wound it turns out she became straight after we broke up and she was simultaneously crushing on my friend while we dated so i just pretended to be ok with everything until i was picked up in the morning because i didn't wat to trouble my mum with picking me up so late at night the next day when i saw him and i asked about it he just thought it was funny i found out and acted like it was nothing i feel like i am less than a person and i really want to die now because when i dated her i felt like someone could actually love me im not that insecure but at the same time i dont believe anyone could like me or feel attracted to me i eventually sent a large message to the groupchat to explain everything i felt and how betrayed and shit and then i kind of just left that friendgroup so now i am all alone in class besides from one friend who is still in the friend group i dont know how to ask my parents for a therapist im just ranting now and i doubt anyone will read this but i need to get it out
