Have you ever felt this way?

[the_motorcycle_boy]

"Well, oh well I feel I'm in decay"

The first line of a popular Midnight Oil song and I think a description most apt, for some people experiencing depression.

Have you ever felt this way?

One of the biggest dilemmas I've faced in "depressive-illness land" is the one of being alone and having no viable means of changing that fact...let me explain...

My depression causes me to be apart. I feel different from others. I find it very hard to mix with people who are "alive and well". So, I remain alone bundled up in a safe but miserable cocoon.

Have you ever felt this way?

I know what I need. I can feel the loneliness, an ache inside. In my mind's eye I see a ghostly parade of familiar faces, old friends, all gone now. Still, I need people, people to talk to, to communicate with, maybe God permit, a laugh!

Have you ever felt this way?

But I can't escape what I'm in, so I must wait for it to pass...weeks...months...years.

I'm reminded of a quote by Charles Bukowski regarding his drinking/literary lifestyle. I think it fits depression too.

"And as my hands drop a last desperate pen, in some cheap room, they will find me there and never know my name, my meaning nor the treasure of my escape".

[Indra]

Hey TMG,

To answer the first ??? Nah, I would give the meds a miss - tried in the younger days and they just don't agree.

Glad to hear the men's shed had something to offer - you did well!

Life is a bit messy at the present - some of it is my own doing. My head isnt quite there, but going through the motions and getting through.

Lattes and mochas! I still drink far too much coffee, but hey lol

Hope life and the road you travel treats you well TMG - take care of yourself.

See you on the flipside Mein freund,

All the best,

Sally

[the_motorcycle_boy]

Hey Indra,

Thanks for your answer concerning meds. I can see that they just aren't your cup of tea. I know I'll be on them for a while yet but one day maybe I'll be off most of them. Then, look out world! Haha!

The Men's Shed does show some promise. Working with computers, fishing and just socialising sounds like fun. We will see...

Well, I hope life gets seriously "unmessy" for you, glad you're getting through it!

Have given up all the coffees, am drinking black tea now.

Take care mon ami. I hope life is going well for you and family.

Catch u later,

TMG

[HA1]

TMG - Hi, you probably don't remember me, but I was around when you first joined.

How are you going? Have not yet caught up with your thread yet, but just thought I would say hello and its good to see you around.

Take care

K

[the_motorcycle_boy]

Hi K,

I do remember you but not the circumstances, it was a good while ago. How are you? I am going pretty good nearly over my depression. Thanks for asking. Good to see you're still around too and hope things are going well for you. Thanks too, for the Hello! was nice to hear from you.

Cheers
TMG

[HA1]

Hi TMG

Wonderful news to hear that you are nearly over your depression. Really good.

I decided to hit the road and find my bliss - its been good. Met some really nice people who don't care about your past or your baggage. They just take you for how you present to them. Nice change.

Take care.

K

[the_motorcycle_boy]

Hi K,

Thanks a lot for your kind words! re: my depression. It is great to be nearly fully well again. I hope you are doing well, yourself.

Hitting the road to find your bliss sounds GREAT! Am glad you met up with some non judging souls. Can be hard to find at times. Indra, the other mainstay of this thread is not judgemental at all and has been a wonderful support to me.

Well, not knowing whereabouts you come from, I wonder if you will be watching State of Origin on Wednesday night. If you are, then I hope you really enjoy the game. It should be a cracker!

Look after yourself

Cheers
TMG