Hello WeAllNeedHelp, I want to start by saying that working in a hospital to provide care for others is a wonderful career choice to make. I can understand why you would feel such a weight of expectations on yourself in an environment like this where you are responsible for the welfare of others.
Have you ever listened to the safety announcement on planes, about fitting your own oxygen mask before helping others in case of an emergency? I think this is good advice for someone like yourself in a caring profession. By seeking counselling you've already taken one good step towards keeping on top of the pressure you're feeling, which I imagine must be something a lot of people in your role would feel.
What sort of freiendships have you developed with your peers at the hospital? The best people to understand what you're going through will be those you are working with. And many of these people may also be very isolated in their stress as well. The more you open up to and develop friendships with your colleagues, the more you will feel like a team. Don't be afraid to ask for help from those more experienced too, with only being the job for 2 months you won't be expected to know everything. Good luck.
