Hi all
Im just about to start a casual role as an SLSO in schools. This is a good thing as I really need the money and am a qualified teacher, so this will be a good chance to have lessened responsibility due to my mental health.
Work is a big trigger for my moderate-severe anxiety, and it is really controlling my life.
Its really counterintuitive, I know, but as soon as someone calls me for work, it’s like my throat closes up, my chest constricts and I get dizzy and extremely panicked.
Many times, out of sheer terror, I’ve said no. Just for a bit of relief from the panic.
I know this is not healthy but I honestly don’t know how to get around this. It isn’t just this job - it’s every job I’ve ever had. I’m terrified of being called in the morning for casual work, even though I need the money.
The one time I’ve “stuck it out” and taken a day casual teaching, I broke out in massive hives and welts from the stress. I also get chronic stomach aches from the worry and most nights struggle to sleep from this.
Has anyone overcome this?
Thanks
