what am I doing

[dougall]

I do not know how to use this site and was looking for someone just to chat with.  I suffer from anxiety and have been suicidal quite a few times over the past 2years.  I have a husband who left because he did not want to know and kept saying get over it already.  Have a son who copes by hiding in his room playing games.  Have no family all abroad.  Find myself trying to push myself out of the quick sand and occasionally slipping under.  Made a promise to son so have not gone as far as I have wanted to.  Had counseling for 12 months. just don't know where or what to do as anxiety stops me from talking to total strangers.  Very lonely and confused as to what is expected of me.

[dougall]

Hi Hideaway sorry about you feeling awful big cuddle to make you feel better.  It is very windy here so I have not managed to sleep well plus my son let the cats out of the laundry which I have only just found out so the noises, which I thought was something in the roof was the cats. I try to go through most of the posts everyday.  It took me 2 hours the other morning to say hi to everyone.  It was 2 hours well spent.  I do not know how my day is going to go, the sun is not yet up.  Sending you the thought of a calming white light that will make you smile, close your eyes and you will see it around you.  If you feel something poke you in the ribs that's me ha ha.

[HA1]

Hi Dougall - thank you, I do appreciate it.

How was your day, good I hope?  Been reading about your interest in craft - that's good, nice distraction. 

Take care

k

[dougall]

Hi Hideaway my day was a bit of a mixture, I could not go out the house, my brain was telling me not to mingle with people, asked my ex to get something for me, he did not bother so will have to do it today.  I am in a better headspace this morning so going to go down to the shops.  The sun is just coming out and there is a tinge of pink.  I did some watercolour and acrylic painting yesterday but just could not keep interest in it.  Once I cannot pay attention to it I stop because I know I will mess it up

when I am in a good frame of mind I can spend all day painting with the time flying by get so much done then.  Did you have a nice evening?

[HA1]

Hi Dougall

Sorry to hear that you had a bad day yesterday, hopefully it was better today.  How was the shopping trip?  I think there must be something in the air at the moment, so many have had bad patches, so many of our regulars.

my evenings are always very quiet, I like it that way.  But I really need to take up a more active hobby - soon.

talk later, 

K

[HA1]

Good morning Dougall!

I hope your evening was great and that you are feeling good this morning.  anything big planned for today?

take care

K

[HA1]

Hi Dougall - have not heard from you for a few days.  I hope everything is ok.

please post back to let us know you are fine.

k

[HA1]

Hi Dougall

i don't want to be a pest, but we have nor heard from you for 6 days now.

Are you able to please let us know that you are ok?

We miss your company on this forum!

k

[lightofday]

Agree Hideaway..... I hope Dougall checks back in soon.... she was a massive support to me and I want her to know that xx