So as a sufferer of anxiety for almost of my life I've created a "safety bubble" around myself which is basically contains my life. As you would expect this bubble is there to protect me as much as possible from uncertainty. I wake up at the same time everyday, leave the house at the same time, drive to the same train station, park in the same spot, catch the same train, eat the same breakfast, get to work at the same time, sit at the same desk, do the same work, leave work at the same time, get on the train, go home, watch TV, go to bed. On the weekend to do the normal chores around the house, go shopping for food and not much else. Of course occasionally I do other things like have coffee or lunch with friends or even take in a football game but this is only maybe once a month. I have my hair cuts already booked at 6 month intervals with the same hair dresser and basically get the same haircut every time.
And most of the time I'm perfectly happy inside my little bubble. I have friends and family (although I don't get along with most of them but that's a much bigger story) I work hard and my boss loves me...
But there are times (like right now) where my safety bubble feels more like a prisoner that I need to escape. I feel like doing something completely out of character like shave my head, punch a wall or quit my job.
Does anyone else feel like this?
