Tired

[Truetomyself]

At the moment I feel really tired and exhausted from my anxiety that is now impacting my depression.
I am also tired of having to hide it. Especially with work.
I can't afford to loose my job but I can't say what's really going on.
I am scared and unsure of what to do. I have lost jobs because of my mental health being so up and down.
I have no one to talk about it to.

[Truetomyself]

I am tired of crying alone. I feel like I'll never be better. I use to think I would and now all I do is feel like such a burden and a failure. I am so scared. I just don't want to be around. Then I won't be a burden to my parents.

[Petal22]

Good morning Truetomyself,

You WILL get better…… better days are coming your way… you need to believe that……. Never give up HOPE!

I understand how it feels to be going through a mental illness when I had severe anxiety OCD my illness felt like a marathon……… but it was a marathon I won! I’d tell myself every day that I was going to recover I never lost hope of that and now I’m on the other side of my illness and life couldn’t be better… I feel reborn again it’s amazing….. keep persevering things WILL get better if I can get better then there is HOPE you can aswell…….

Have you been able to try meditation? If you haven’t please try it….. meditation was one thing that helped me to recover ….. it teaches you to become aware…. You can learn that you arnt your thoughts but the watcher of your thoughts…

You can re train your brain Truetomyself, every negative thought that your brain it gives you give it back a positive one……. Build yourself up! You CAN… if I CAN you CAN!

You are LOVE Truetomyself I believe all human beings are this they just need to realise its our true essence….. we all have a inner light … you have one Truetomyself….. let it shine!

Seeing, hearing and feeling are miracles…… ❤️

You are far from a burden or failure you are a shining light….. it’s within you…., all you have ever wanted is within you! Trust it …. Let it shine……

I’m always here to chat to you my beautiful friend your not alone ……….. You have a bright future ahead of you….. believe it!

[Petal22]

Goodmorning Truetomyself,

Just a little something for you 😊

This is for the ones struggling right now. This is for the ones who have been having a rough week or even year. The ones who feel this storm will never end. Keep fighting for you. Not for your friends , not for your family, but for you. Keep fighting because deep down you hold a tiny voice that knows you were meant for far more than this sadness and pain you are feeling. Keep fighting because the person you will be on the other side of this is cheering for you so much. Keep fighting because you will get there. And it will be worth it.

💪

[Truetomyself]

Thank you.

I went to my psychiatrist today and my mother just put me down. Which has made me more anxious. I wish I had the strength to get up and leave. I am dreading the mornings even more. I just want peace. All I have ever wanted is peace. I am tired of it. When my mum left the room my psychiatrist wants me to leave but how????

[Petal22]

TEstthisahjah

[Here2Talk]

Hi TTM,

Are you old enough to legally move out where you live? Different states/jurisdictions have different laws about which conditions you may make up your own mind and leave. Maybe you could ring up the various help lines, or if you don't know the various numbers, maybe we could collaborate on this forum trying to find you the right numbers that you could call in order to get the information you need - both on whether you can leave, how you can leave, and how to go about getting centrelink benefits.

I'm so sorry you're being treated like this, no human deserves to be treated so by their parents. Did the psychiatrist give you any information on how you might go about leaving?

[Truetomyself]

I can leave but I am not working. The psychiatrist told me to get a job to move. But I am not doing well. How do you leave your bedroom when you are scared? How do you do life with no support? My self esteem is so low, I don't have the willpower to keep fighting when I am put down. I feel like a failure, I feel like why can't I move. But I have so much fear I don't know how to feel, how to be me.

[Here2Talk]

Well TTM it’s not surprising that one would feel low and not able to move with a home life of rejection and abuse. It would be hard to pull yourself up around that- when you’ve got your own mind that torments you and other people being unhelpful it’s like a double whammy holding you down... I’d imagine, and I’m so sorry that it’s happening to you.

I totally get being afraid to move with the trauma and rejection; you are not doing well and that is understandable that it would make it hard to get a job, but do you think you could get some kind of benefit allowance from the government to allow you to move?

[Truetomyself]

I don't know. I can't even think.

I am so anxious and I can' leave my room. I wake up and am afraid of my mother and everything going on.

I don't know what to do anymore. I honestly don't.

I am so afraid of everything and my mother.

I am tired.

[Here2Talk]

I totally understand that my friend...

You could possibly find out about the benefit by ringing Centrelink. Do you find talking on the phone too hard or scary?