That heavy feeling

[Unknown234]

Everythings different now it’s not just as simple as my body weight and stuff like that it’s more I can’t explain it though. I have a really heavy feeling in my body all the time like I’m slowly drowning nothing seems to make me happy anymore. I don’t cry anymore it’s like I have too much feelings that it’s not possible anymore. I act happier than ever cause the longer I go on the better I get at acting. I just want someone to notice me and to help but let’s be honest I’m alone and I’m never gonna get someone that will understand and appreciate the real me.

I’m gonna lose someone really good again because I don’t know how to be my self I want to I really do but I don’t know how to
But I could at least be the person that I show most people
I just don’t want to lose another person
I just hate who I am
What I look like
How I act
I want to at least have some more Confidence
I want to
Yet I can’t

[Sophie_M]

Hey Unknown234, welcome to the Beyond Blue forums. 

We're so sorry to hear what you're going through at the moment. It sounds like things are really tough. We can hear how overwhelmed and upset you're feeling. How long have you felt this way?

If you feel up to it, we’d encourage you to reach out to our Support Service. We’re available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. One of our professional mental health counsellors at our Support Service will give you support and point you in the right direction for help in your area.

You might also like to reach out to our friends at Kids Help Line on 1800 55 18 00. They offer confidential and anonymous, telephone and online counselling service specifically for young people aged between 5 and 25.  It might also be worth looking at the HeadSpace website. They have lots of information for young people who are going through a tough time. Please check back in with us here whenever you feel up to it.