Hi! So I’ve been told I have severe anxiety, severe stress and severe depression. I don’t know what to do or where to go about it. When I try to speak about what I’m feeling it never comes out as intense as I feel! When I’m having an attack I feel terrified, I can feel my insides shaking, my throat feels like it’s closing, my chest hurts, my jaw hurts, I feel like I’m going to faint, I’m scared. I feel things in my body and I fixate on them always thinking the most extreme medical emergency, if I read something in the news about someone having a medical issue I all of a sudden start feeling that and become petrified that I have it too! I’m struggling to leave the house even taking my kids to school is hard most days. I can’t go grocery shopping or go to public places alone, every thing that can be done online I do. I’m struggling being social even eye contact is becoming something I’m uncomfortable with. I overthink the small things and work myself up and become flustered, just knowing I have something I need to do even something small like vacuuming really stresses me out. I’m becoming forgetful, when I’m putting the dishes away I’m always mixing up cupboards and feel really clumsy, sometimes I walk around the kitchen holding a plate and for a small moment just feel so confused and disoriented about where it goes. I rarely can keep appointments because I always end up cancelling because it involves leaving the house, even if the appointment is for something like hairdresser I overthink being in a situation where I have to make conversation with someone so I just don’t go. I even struggle answering the phone. I’m an at home mum but I know eventually I’ll have to go to work, how do I do that? I’m terrified thinking of that day.
