Starting new job tomorrow

[Shineshineshine]

Hi

I have come onto this forum in the hope of gaining some support and strength. I start a new job tomorrow and am super nervous! I haven't worked in 4 years due to anxiety issues. Have been offered and accepted jobs during that time, but after going for the first day, or half a day, I always found an excuse to leave and reject the job, it has become a bad habit and I don't want it to continue into this year. I know that this is a bad cycle and I need to break it, otherwise my life will remain at a standstill like it has the past 4 years. I see other people achieve so much in these past 4 years,and all I have done is stay in my comfort zone at home and on Centrelink. I don't like that I'm wasting my life like this.

Tomorrow is my first day at the new job and I am worried that I will find some reason to quit the job before even starting. It is a part time job, 25 hours a week, Mon-Fri, so I think it will be a good way to ease myself into working again. But I just fear that my anxiety will once again get the better of me and I will self sabotage like in the past.

Any tips on how I can break this bad cycle so that I can reclaim my life back?

[Neil_1]

Dear Durras

Thanx so much for your latest response and that was so pleasing that you got through the interview – it’s that damn lead up time that can really play havoc with our inner workings;  mind, stomach and those damn butterflies that seemingly lie dormant for months and years on end, suddenly awaken and flutter about.

I want someone who’s not after money, but after the position for the job satisfaction (or the job itself).  I guess that’s a fair enough call from the manager – but truthfully, he’s not going to get someone who’s gonna come in and say, “No, I want this job so I can get the big bucks”.  That’s never gonna win anyone a job – unless you work for Gordon Gecko – wow, that’s a long time ago movie, and I can’t even remember what it was called.  Slight digression there.

Your response was a very good one and to me, that showed that not only are you interested in the job, but also interested in wanting to better yourself in that particular field.  That’s actually given me some good advice for future job positions for me to chase.  I really liked that.

I really like this post you wrote – as I can sense good positivity coming through;   feeling stressed (naturally enough) before the interview and yet being able to overcome and not only get through that interview, but from what you wrote, you performed very well.

Then to come up with the field where you’d really like to pursue and for the reasons why as well.  This is all excellent stuff Durras.  Keep this great attitude going;  and please keep hanging around here as it’s great chatting and hearing from you as well.

Kind regards

Neil

[Durras]

Hi Neil,

just quickly as my husband will be home soon and I don't want him to see me on here.

thank you for your beautiful response and I will respond again tomorrow after doctors appointment. Seeking out new meds these are making me badly constipated and my mind is going like a run away train.

catch up tomorrow

Hug to you with a big thank you

Durras

[Durras]

Hi Neil,

I said I will post to you again today but I'm still not feeling much better today, feeling really tired, down, confused and lost. Went to doctors and he has given me new meds.

I know I have all these plans and goals and thank you for being so proud of me for having them, it is more then I receive from parents. I know in my mind to it is great to have them but really I am feeling can I accomplish, can I succeed with them and other stuff going through my head too confused to find the right wording to type it here.

So glad I found this forum, everyone is so beautiful, supportive and caring I just wish I could give the same back to everyone on here.

Will post again soon and thank you for your post, support and caring words.

Durras

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[El_Guapo]

Hey Shines,

how are you going buddy, hope it is all working out ok for you.

Don't worry if you have a bad day as we all have those, just remember that it will pass and in no time you will DOMINATE THE WORLD. So proud of you buddy.

Mingo AKA El Guapo.