Hello, I have no idea what i’m doing so I thought i would share my anxiety issues so i feel less alone.
I just graduated school, and things couldn’t get much worse in regards to my mental health. As soon as I graduated I was thrown into the deep end, working a minimum of 35 hours a week while still trying to condition myself to this new way of life. I am completely stuck and lost, losing control of my mental stability, emotions and anxiety.
Work has been a root cause. Working in retail and suffering from severe anxiety i’m constantly challenging myself and never really get a break. Today, i called in sick for the first time in a while even though we are extremely understaffed and i’ve never felt so guilty. I feel guilty even though i was suffering from panic attacks just at the mere thought of going in. I feel like a weak person for not being able to fight through this and letting it get the best of me, like i can’t function like a regular person. I punish myself constantly for the way my mind works, which i know isn’t healthy, but i can’t help it. I’m currently freaking out right now, scared that my workplace will cut my hours purely based on my unreliability because i called in sick. I don’t want to feel useless, and i don’t want to be scared to go to work but these overwhelming feelings are getting the best of me and in times like this i can barely cope.
