HI amber23
I just wanted to stop in and say how very brave you are to come and seek some support and some advice here and I am so glad to chat to you and I hope that I can support you through this time.
I am so sorry that as a result of your dad yelling at you that you now feel like you cannot use your voice and you are frightened to be judged or yelled at as a result of asking a question. I can't begin to know how that feels when you are so anxious and worried that you cannot speak for fear of being yelled at, that must be so difficult and so hard in school too as how do you get your learning on track if you cant ask a question?
I am very proud of you though that you can now ask in a shop or speak if you need assistance as that is a really great start, now I just have a question for you, how was it that you found the strength to ask a stranger for assistance in a shop, not knowing that person and if they would yell at you or not? My next question is around when you are in the classroom, when other students ask questions do the teachers yell at them at make them feel stupid or wrong or bad or like they should never have asked that question? I would think that they don't, they may not make good teachers if they did...
You see, I have just found out that my brother who recently passed away felt this very same way, that he had no voice and would not speak for fear of not being yelled at like you do amber23 but out of being judged by his peers, that they would think he was an idiot or dumb or didn't deserve to be in the class as he was so stupid. I just want to say one thing that I have found in life that typically people don't get upset if you ask a question, asking a question shows you are keen to know more, or that you are interested in learning, or that you perhaps need to hear that information again as it is a new concept/idea/scenario for you and you want to understand.
I am so sorry that you are feeling this way amber23 and I hope that we can chat.
AS
