Misophonia causing panic attacks

[Alizerath]

I have had misophonia (the extreme hatred of sound) for as long as I can remember. its worsened to the point where I can't eat meals or be. around people who are eating without breaking down and having a fully fledged panic attack. my misophonia makes me into someone I'm not, someone violent, hateful and spiteful. my family just tells me to 'get over it' but it is so much harder then that. it makes me feel like im insane. My family constantly tells me to 'control my anxiety' as if I'm not trying. they have never offered me support however, or taken me to see a proffessional. I feel so alone. the worst thing was once at dinner my sister said 'anyone who has ever met you can tell you have anxiety" and. my family laughed. I just thought, if everyone knows I have anxiety, why has no one ever helped me? my parents promised me when I was about 12 that they would take me to see a proffessional, but nothing ever came of it. I am so exhausted, and I can't keep living like this. I have tried to ask for help, I have made it so obvious that I need help, but my family refuses to aknowledge it and tells me I need to 'get over it'. am I insane? Are they right? my oldest sister, who lives away from here has anxiety. my family constantly gossips about her and says she is a 'horrible person'. I know she isn't. I know she just feels the same way that I do and never received help. I hate being the way that I am, and if nothing changes I don't know what I'm going to do.

[Croix]

Dear Ali

Welcome back, I've read some of your other posts abut you dog passing away, about difficulties wiht acquaintances, your unkind judgment of yourself, and about anxiety that something untoward might happen to members of your family if they are not where you expected or are late.

Now sadly you are finding further triggers via sounds, and still your family does not seem to take your situation -which is a horrible one -seriously.

Anxiety is extremely difficult to live with and that, together with other conditions I have, had simply kept on getting worse until I was able to have competent medical help on an ongoing basis. So far you have said your family has not tried to provide you wiht this , and if I understand correctly, for your older sister either. Your sister being someone else that suffers from anxiety.

You are quite right in thinking things have to change, and I guess if others fail in their duty to you then you should consider taking thngs into your own hands and getting medical help directly yourself.

I would suggest you ring the Kids Help Line (1800 55 1800) and explain all that has happened, how you feel, and your parents lack of constructive support. They are professional, caring and realistic and can be quite a comfort, as well as providing proper advice. They have web-chat as well if you do not want to talk

https://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/webchat-counselling/

Do you think that is something you might be able to do? It is not nearly as hard as you might think, and it does not matter if you believe you have an illness or not, they are there to assist.

While I'm asking questions, how do you get on with your older sister? It sounds like you have a lot in common.

I look forward to talking with you more

Croix