Hi again SYT;
I'm so glad my post helped. I totally understand where you're at ok. Life can suck at the best of times, so when something challenging occurs, your MH issues amplify responses and worry to make coping that much harder.
Some AD's such as the one I'm on can interfere with sleep, so I take it in the mornings. I've been on them for 4 yrs now and tbh, I don't think my body knows the difference anymore.
Being able to sleep now tells me your brain's liking the increase in med's. We tend to view 'thinking' as being the problem, but it's our chemical make-up that rules the roost.
MH disorders like anxiety, cause physical symptoms, fog brain, lack of concentration, difficulty making decisions or an inability to cope with concerns we might otherwise breeze thru.
This is caused by the central nervous system being damaged by too much stress or trauma. It either shuts down, (a breakdown) or works ineffectively like a car's battery that needs changing, or worn spark plugs.
It's like any injury; it takes time, attention and rest to recover. Damage to our brains and CNS is physically real, not imaginary like some people might think. I remember when I had my breakdown, I'd talk psychotic rubbish to people thinking they'd understand. In essence, my brain was broken.
My advice is to reduce stress any way you can. That means saying 'no' to family/friends and staying away from situations that might lead to stress. If you can't fix something, let it go. Worrying over things you aren't involved in, or helping others get over their worries needs to stop while you recuperate. Being 'selfish' is absolutely necessary ok.
If you find yourself being irrational, don't try to push thru it; please ask for help. I need to ask; have you been having suicidal ideations or self harming? Know this site is safe, private and non judgemental. Talking on here about these issues is promoted to help you move forward thru your recovery.
If you want to, please put a 'TRIGGER WARNING' at the beginning of your post to alert others in case they might be triggered by reading your words, as this sometimes happens.
I hope I haven't overwhelmed you. Please keep talking ok.
Warmth;
Sez
