Serve anxiety please help I feel like giving up

[Brookeashlea]

1. I had a massive panic attack in September on my mums birthday when I was driving to get her balloons to let go for her birthday as she passed away in June . I have been on antidepressants for 5 years due to having panic attacks . Haven’t had one since then after losing my mum I had it and haven’t been able to drive since . I finally went for a drive 30 minutes today  in the car with my husband I couldn’t drive tho and I was getting all body sensations but they passed . My body tricks me with symptoms and I start freaking out something is wrong but it isn’t my mind won’t stop thinking so much . I can’t sleep without AirPods in and I’m doing mediation everyday affirmations everyday tapping therapy a week on a higher dose of meds I feel as everyday there is something I feel so anxious I don’t leave my house . Not my bed much .. my mind is constantly racing I try stay busy clean etc and build puzzles I write in a journal everyday . How do I make my mind know I’m okay and it to stop flight and fight response . I started walking everyday also .. it’s like nothing is working . The thoughts won’t stop and my body is always so restless and anxious 
   it’s killing me and my life I wanna live again and not be scared and fear everything . I wanna feel normal again . It’s been two months … any help please I feel as I’m going crazy and will never be okay again . 

[ADB]

I find Emma McAdam -  “Therapy in a Nutshell” so helpful (she’s very straightforward) 

she has lots of free info on her website & great YouTube videos 

[Ukrose]

Hello, I hear you. I have been living with anxiety for a long time now and I have had a number of panic attacks. They are awful! But, they don't do you any harm, at the time you feel as though your world is caving in. Have you been to your doctor and asked for a mental health plan to see a therapist? I thought I could cope on my own but its best to have a therapist that you click with. They can really help you through all the horrible feelings. I also did EMDR therapy, which helped me alot, as I am also suffering with PTSD. You will get better and you may have setbacks along the way but you will get through it. Take care and I wish you well