Seeking information about 'Frozen emotion syndrome'

[starmeg68]

I am putting this under anxiety because I do suffer anxiety attacks but that is not what I need help with - I am learning to deal with that. I used to also suffer depression - but that was probably more to do with being an alcoholic than anything else. The difference with me was instead of drinking to not feel anything - I drank in ORDER to feel. This numbness has been present since childhood. I have two children and I noticed after the birth of my daughter 22 years ago that I was actually just behaving the way I knew society expected mothers to behave. I changed nappies, I cuddled, I told her I loved her but I didn't actually feel it. The day I knew something was very wrong with me and had been for a long time, was the day when I thought 'I bet my baby will die from SIDS' and I didn't get upset, I just started thinking about what I would have to organise for a funeral. There is so many more instances of me not feeling anything at all about people I know I should feel love and concern for. This morning, my mother who is 76 yrs old and visiting - fell. And being on anticoagulant she has some nasty bruises coming up. And all I could say was oh well these things happen and we'll just keep an eye out for internal bleeding, and went back to watching my tv show. I don't think that is what mentally and emotionally healthy people would do. Even while I am writing this - I am detached. I don't care if I get answers or not - I am just intensely curious about what treatments there are. I already see a counsellor, in fact I have an appointment today and I will also ask her about this. As I said - just curious if someone has come across this before. I am pretty sure I am not a psychopath or sociopath. I love animals - more than humans. It seems to be only human beings I can't feel anything for. Anyway, thats all from me.

[HA1]

Hi starmeg 68

Welcome to the forum!  

I must admit that until now, I had never heard of frozen emotion syndrome.  But I googled it and discovered it has been around for a long time.  I sense it is closely associated with PTSD - is this right?

I hope someone else might have come across it and can be more helpful than I have been.  But I just wanted to let you know that we are here should you wish to continue to post.  I hope you do, because it is not  a topic that I have come across on this forum (someone will probably prove me wrong!).

Anyway, good to hear from you and hopefully you will post again.

All the best

K

[Doolhof]

Hi starmeg68,

Welcome to the Community here at Beyond Blue. I am a bit like Hideaway, I have never heard of "Frozen Emotion Syndrome" either and will be very interested if any one else reading our posts has suffered from this.

I'm wondering if you have been to a psychologist or a psychiatrist for a diagnosis?

Years ago I was diagnosed as having Borderline Personality Disorder. With that I can have times where I feel really disconnected from everyone around me and have to concentrate on being in the here and now.

Some days I look at my husband and wonder who he is and when family come I have a similar feeling. It is a bit hard to describe as it is how I have felt for so long.

Hopefully someone will come up with more information and I too will be more aware of this condition.

Cheers for now, from Mrs. Dools (Lauren)