Scared for 3 things at once. Anxiety at a high

[Mudcakes]

I start year 11 today. Anxious all night. Can’t sleep. My dog woke up coughing for a long time. She’s almost 10. She has previously been diagnosed with a heart murmur, and she is licking a lot anxious. I am thinking the worst which I should never do. I might have to take a taxi from the vet later by myself to get to school. I have social anxiety and freaking out. I honestly feel scared and stressed. Any ideas how to cope? Or what has helped you before? My anxiety/social anxiety is full on.

[Jack2021]

...especially when there's people around you may not know too well, or may not be too comfortable talking with..

Hopefully it does help though, and you can find some sort of solution 😊

(My post got split in half...my bad...)

[Guest_4643]

I hope things go better for you, Mudcakes. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.

[Mudcakes]

Update:

Had zoom meeting with my psychologist and my Mum read out my essay as my psychologist could not open the file. So hoping like crazy the school can. I will ask in the meeting with wellbeing about a phone exemption on mental health grounds to listen to music and meditate in class with headphones and to be able to text mum or do a kids helpline/ beyond blue webchat during break times if I need to. I have a friend who I bonded with over the holidays but yet to speak in person who also feels scared of school for different reasons. 💖

Mudcakes 🐕‍🦺🎂

[Guest_4643]

Hi Mudcakes, thanks for updating us. I hope the Zoom meeting went well and the Psychologist was good.

Those are good suggestions, I hope you can do them. I wish my high and primary schools did that, when I was there.

Best of luck.

[Mudcakes]

Ok so I did a instagram live on my private account and kind of went into slight detail of why my first day was bad and what “someone” was doing and I said a few things and said names of horrible people in my past from my old school. My mum says It was great, I was so real. I guess it just came out. Luckily no one saw it but I did save it. Hoping like crazy no one hates me now or think I was being mean. I just wanted to go live and it just came out, I didn't say who the person was though.

[Jack2021]

Hiya mudcakes 😊

I hope the things you talked about with your school and with wellbeing will work out and hopefully help you a bit 😊😊 listening to music and meditating sounds like a great idea and will probably be something for me to try when I return to work as well 😱

So glad to hear you made a friend and bonded over the holidays and that they know what your things are like 😊

Instagram thing sounds good especially if your mum was supportive too 😊 only thing I would do is try to only show it to people I know who are going to be understanding and supportive 😊 I avoid social media myself, but I know it can help sometimes if you're supported by friends and family 😊😊

[Guest_4643]

Hey Mudcakes, I'm sorry you're dealing with this.

[Mudcakes]

Wellbeing meeting soon. Wish me luck! Might read out my essay.

[Jack2021]

Good luck mudcakes!!

We're all supporting you 😊😊

[Mudcakes]

Update:

I was so emotional in the wellbeing meeting that the student social worker read out my essay. They refused to offer a phone exemption, due to the government policy, even though it clearly states for mental health reasons there can be an exemption. My teachers on the first day even said they do exemptions. They moved my seat a few rows back and next to my friend and “best friend”. They added a traffic light system that means I can point to a orange card at my table meaning check on me later or a red card meaning I need headphones and help. Doubt it will work. I was planning on going back Monday with this plan in place but now Dan Andrews is putting us on lockdown for 5 days. (Not all having flashbacks😣) Plus they might do online learning and omg I could not handle that last year at all. 😟