Scared for 3 things at once. Anxiety at a high

[Mudcakes]

I start year 11 today. Anxious all night. Can’t sleep. My dog woke up coughing for a long time. She’s almost 10. She has previously been diagnosed with a heart murmur, and she is licking a lot anxious. I am thinking the worst which I should never do. I might have to take a taxi from the vet later by myself to get to school. I have social anxiety and freaking out. I honestly feel scared and stressed. Any ideas how to cope? Or what has helped you before? My anxiety/social anxiety is full on.

[Jack2021]

Hii mb 😊

Ahh now I see what you mean about seeing my last post haha...I replied to your message in the other thread first just now 😂

Anyway I'm so glad, just wanted to acknowledge and appreciate you 😊 definately feeling safe and supported so far which is really nice 😊

[Guest_4643]

Thanks again Jack, I appreciate the kind words. I appreciate you too. Glad you're feeling safe and supported here.

[Mudcakes]

Update;

haven't been back to school since. Apparently they moved my seat to another row back and moved my locker a bit. My psychologist is meant to speak to the school today. I am scared for my anxiety and the similarities to the experience I had in year 7 with extremely bad bullying. I am not sure If I can mention it here but the bully from year 7 at my old school blamed me for her mental distress. I am scared that even though the seating is changed that it won’t change anything as the class is small and the dynamic is the same. I am scared I’ll keep being trigged everyday and be alone. My psychologist or head of wellbeing will call us later today.

[Guest_4643]

Hey Mudcakes.

That's terrible, and what a horrible "person" to do that to you. You haven't done anything wrong, that "person" is just horrible, not you. They must hate themselves.

I understand the bullying all too well unfortunately, and being alone. I'm thinking of you. I hope the Psychologist and Head Of Wellbeing can sort it out, and things improve for you, and your Dog.

Sending my love and hugs, and kind thoughts. You poor thing.

[Jack2021]

Hi mudcakes

Sounds like a very tricky situation...hopefully your psychologist and head of wellbeing can sort it out for you, can you request class changes to be away from this certain person??

Other possible options could be changing schools or studying from home, or doing vcal? (Or is that just for Victoria? No idea...)

Anyway hopefully things start looking up for you 😊

[Mudcakes]

Small school so can’t change classes at all and it actually is vcal. My psychologist still has not spoken to them yet as she has rung but no answer and wellbeing was supposed to call her today but hasn't yet. I won’t be going back tomorrow either. I can’t go back until I get a safety plan in place and my psychologist has spoken to them.

Just watched Dan Andrews press conference and not great information coming through.😔

[Guest_4643]

Yep, Dan Andrews is an idiot. I could say many things about him but they're not good, and not appropriate for this forum.

Thinking of you Mudcakes.

[Jack2021]

Ahhh I see I see......well at least your psychologist seems to have a handle of the situation, and you are in a safe place hopefully while they try to sort this out for you 😊 do you have any cool tv/movie scripts to work on while you are at home? Are you keeping yourself busy? 😊

I only ask because a big part of a major depressive setback I had myself today, is that i had literally nothing to do for most of the day...
I unintentionally hurt the feelings of a loved one yesterday, and went home today, only to sit on the couch all day half-watching DVDs and emotionally getting worse and worse throughout the day until I was a complete wreck by around 5pm ..never a good place to be....

Anyway try to fill your time maybe is what I think I mean to say..it's something I need to do myself, and if you need to, you can do as well, to help with boredom and try to de-stress I guess...much easier said than done I know, maybe you can relate, but when I get very stressed, anxious, or depressed, pretty much nothing brings me out of it, it takes me quite a few hours until I can actually even function, let alone "feel normal"

Anyway I hope tommorow is a better day 😊😊

[Mudcakes]

Update:

Psycologist spoke to school. The wellbeing wants a meeting. Tomorrow my mum and I will do a zoom with my psychologist to figure out what questions to ask in the meeting. I wrote a powerful essay about my experience on the first day, explaining my social phobia in powerful detail and why I was trigged and what happened at my old school and how it still effects me to this day. Mum is sending it to the school and my psychologist. Hoping it will help in some way.

[Jack2021]

Sounds like everyone is taking steps in the right direction mudcakes' 😊

It must not have been easy writing that essay, and I'm sure the meeting might not be easy either...it can be hard talking about bad things that have happened to you, especially