Returned to work

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I’ve been on work cover for around 10/11 months due to work place injury, bullying, assault and numerous other things happend I’ve been sent to a new location ( temporarily) while I adjust to returning to work , today was first day back It was hard I was lumped in a role I’ve never done ( receptionist) Recived no training just answer phones take notes which is way stressing when I don’t know clients procedures or  even the telephone systems or who to ask for help no one was available despite me asking numerous times for help . I can’t say how I felt after leaving work all of 3 hours work left me sweating profusely and literally panicked state of mind then to top it off I got a snarky email from my nasty return to work co ordinator due to apparently me missing something in a timesheet I submitted and that was my fault given I’ve never had to do timesheets and again no one was around to assist me to complete these tasks . My dad says I should quit and after today I feel I should I I’mvery overwhelmed by today’s awful work day and told my new boss that too . I dread going into work tomorrow , how do others deal with returning to work after long absence and mental health problems I have anxiety and depression Re what happened at my original work site yes I am requesting a new return to work co ordinator 

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Thanks emotion’s your  Support has  helped me a lot . Should I and what ifs are the worst I don’t enjoy the double thinking in my brain & doubts it’s not very fun. 

[TBR]

Hi Emily

No problem with kind words, your so easy to chat to. I thought your work would come back with that excuse, are you still getting paid your weekly amount seeing your not terminated as yet and still on w/c.  if it was me I'd let them wait until you see your lawyer next week. if you want to scare them just tell them your lawyer will be handling it now so they'll have to wait until you get advice off the lawyer. No need to panic Emily, your doing great and handling it the best you can. You shouldn't have to deal with all this crap without that advice you need, this w/c is technical and takes some handling to get the best results. Make sure your lawyer is no win / no fee and the majority of the fee when you win comes from the insurer. You may have to pay a little but that comes out of your payment. Mines the same as the above so they're not ripping you off if they tell you that.

I'm sure your doing brilliantly Emily considering the situation the company has put you in. 

I'm kind of excited about it as I'm used to dealing in the medical side of things from long ago. I'm thinking this volunteer thing may be a doorway back into the hospital environment and paid work but time will tell. I don't get nervous for interviews really, I think if they want someone who will try their best hopefully they give me a chance. I'll be my normal charming self 😂 and see how it goes. Can't say everything on here as its all public and still have that trust issue with others, Not you by the way.

This weight thing sucks, I lose a load then hit a wall and put some back on again from snacking (comfort food) and then get pissed off with myself for putting it back on again lol.

For me to take my mind off things I snack or find something to do round the house or in the garden, go to the shops, thinking of going to the local pools as they have that hydrotherapy pool as well as normal pools. Once I'm officially unemployed I'll be able to get discount's as well (another plus) 😊.  Walking is good as well except I think I'd be slower than you after awhile, atm I'm more a stroller than fast walker🤦‍♂️. 

Wow you got a busy week,  best wishes with all your doctors appointments,  mine is quiet until Thursday when I have that interview at the hospital that's if the clown at rtw provider gets it sorted.

Are you going to get dressed up for Halloween and do the trick or treat thing just to get some candy's  😂

My week is looking hot and hotter from tomorrow, 28, then into the 30's up to 37 by Friday I think. To me at the moment every day is like a weekend, kind of enjoying it being at home but on the other side of things it's weird not having any job to go to. Kind of muddles my head at times and gets me thinking of the future. I know that both of us will get though our issues over time and will sort itself out, still gets you thinking if you know what I mean. 

Was sat outside this morning on my lounger and was great in the sun trying to get my summer tan sorted, think nice weather really lifts your mood. The rest of the day was pretty good, I had a nap, watched tv, made lunch on the bbq and just sat about. Hope you had a great day and try not to worry Emily, that mountain in your head can be scaled and you will reach the summit and post that flag.👍

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Hi jeff

yeah I’m hoping to delay the paperwork they  job say they want. Yes receive weekly payments at the moment . I have some bad days dealing with this the anxiety takes over but trying to manage as best I can . Yeah the weight thing & the snacking can be tough I find it hard I  lost a lot due to stress but it kinda fluctuates every now and then need to b better when I’m stressed and pressured a bit , yes I did the dress up thing and got lollies ect why not it’s fun get to not b   Me and not think for a few hours it’s a fun time . I know what u mean on the not working/ thinking about the future thing it can be hard but u know I think we will both get there even if it takes time we will . 

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Had a weird night and day, never slept till early this morning, then woke up about 1pm.lolol spent the rest of the day chilling out and doing chores round the house. Feel pretty good now as cooked a feast on the bbq and had desert and coffee. lolol Yeah can imagine it would be fun to be someone else for a while, maybe I should of tried it, do love a good horror film.  have to see if the clown from my rtw provider messages me tomorrow about the hospital thing. yeah we'll get there no matter what...

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Hi Jeff 

hope things go well at the hospital interview tomorrow good luck . Sorry u didn’t sleep well me either it happens just keep plugging on . Hope u has a nice day today . I like horror movies too especially retro ones . 

[TBR]

Hiya Emily. 

well that was fun, got all dressed up, well dressed up as in long trousers and a nice shirt, went to the hospital, met with my rtw provider guy and the bloke we was meant to see at the hospital was off sick and hadn't told us. Got a free coffee off the rtw guy, paid my $6 to get out of the carpark except the system was down and all the barriers were up anyway..😂😂😂😂. Got to do it all over again next week, (stop Laughing).

Apart from that not a lot else has happened. lovely and warm here up to 36 and 37 next 2 days...

How's you been, what have you been up to

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Hi jeff

oh that’s a bit disappointing that  the interviewer was sick oh well  give u time to relax and enjoy the cup weekend. Ive just been busy lots of appointments it seems I start occupational rehab end of the month which is ok seeing lawyers next week get extended date for my old works wanting my medical records so that’s a bonus, wow 36 it’s like 16 here it’s freezing I run around in jumpers it’s so cold . Trying to find a new school for my daughter as hers is not aligned with my values & is quite negative about how nice she is so I’m like nup I’m done with them forever now . Tried to book in for a local school but the principal wouldn’t even give me the time of day so I reported him to the department of education & trying to make an appointment with her current school VP to discuss their poor attitude toward my daughter ,I’m pretty over this week I’ve had chiro for my back endless running around and generally feeling pretty bad but keeping busy and trying to do my best not to loose my cool. 

[TBR]

Hi Emily. 

was so funny had to laugh.. great coffee though. hot tomorrow as well so can't complain, no jumpers here, just shorts for me atm, 20 tonight here and 37 tomorrow. 😂😂 Occupational rehab sounds great, are you happy about it. glad your seeing lawyers and extended date on work request. they'll just have to wait till it suits you. Remember you are in charge of your destiny Emily. 

Can understand your frustration over schools, schooling should be your choice and if their not up to your views and beliefs you should have the right to choose another. Don't let the b/s get you Emily, if you want something you just got to go for it and  don't let negative people rule your mood. Sounds like the principle needs reporting so you did well reporting him. 

Hope the chiro is helping your back and the running around and stressing won't help that to much.  Don't let people make you feel bad, your too good for others to drag you down. Take a few deep breathes and let all that negativity out and don't loose your cool. These people aren't worth you getting emotionally upset and you do know in the end all will work out great. Keep on smiling Em.

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• hi Jeff 
  Sounds like lovely weather got some nice warm days ahead not sure how I’ll cope after the extended winter we’ve had  here haha . 
  Not sure on the occupational rehabilitation aspect but just wait and  see I’m open minded to a degree but don’t really trust people much , if people are being mean   it throws me thru a bit of a loop.   Something I have to work on. breathing yeah I don’t breathe enough was gonna try meditation classes but I’m not good at it  I’m too active to sit still for long   And would probably end up fidgety and restless it would be a struggle for me I used to do yoga but can’t do it anymore  need to get back into the weeds at home and start feeling better about things ur right on the stress on back not helpful to it  .  I hope the rest of your week is good thou , the int at the hospital next week will hopefully go better than last time .  Happy Friday 

[TBR]

hey Emily

you know the bad come before the good, bad weather lead to good weather, same in life, the bad or not so good lead to brightness and good. I guess at some point we all have to move on from the past to the future so occupational rehab could lead you to a brilliant future. Open minded is the same as I am but don't trust people without questioning what's in it for them and even then make them prove themselves before you even half trust them. If their mean you don't need them in your life no matter what. 

You know being restless and fidgety is just away your body says you need to clear your mind so I think yoga or meditation would do you good even if you try it for a short time, maybe minutes to start off with. You can do anything you want to do Emily, your active most of the time so that shows you can do that so being still for a few minutes should be worth a go. Have fun with the weeds, one weed at a time and use that to relax and look at them as problems your dealing with. 

Hope your weekend is going well and next week for you will be great, I have a  feeling about it.