Dear New Member (Bluest_Light?)~
I'd like to welcome you here to the Forum where I hope you will find others who have been in similar situations and have differing perspectives
I, due to depression, anxiety and other illnesses, would loved to have just resigned, however I was afraid of what would happen afterwards, financially and otherwise. I did hang on too long and was invalided out as I was no longer able to work.
I'm not saying waht I did would be good for you, in fact I'm not recommending any particular course of action, just wish to point out some things that might not seem that obvious either way.
The first is you are making most important decision while under the extreme influence of anxiety - this leads to actions that one believes has quick results. While getting away from a job that is giving you aniety it is not quite the same as having anxiety and then quitting a job - do you get what I mean?
If you do quit do you think you wil be able to live life afterwards with the same attitude ot yourself as you have now? Even though I had no choice I still felt bad about myself once the initial relief of no pressure had subsided.
You said that you had been with your boss for 10 years and had got on well at work. It is only now that he has his own company you are feeling no longer morally aligned (which may be the most important factor) and that the company has lost its way?
To have all the symptoms you have listed reminds me of myself, and I simply kept on getting worse until I had competent medical assistance (therapy and medication).
May I ask if you are being treated for your anxiety? I could never have improved to the good state I'm in today with out it. If you are being treated have you talked this move over wiht your clinical team?
It may be an extended bout of sick leave may leave you in a better place rather than outright resignation Would that be possible?
As your relationship wiht you boss has been good you might feel like trying, the first being to set out all your concerns to your boss and see if in a conversation some of the matters can be resolved or at least subject to compromise. Your boss may value your opinion more than you realise.
If you do decide to leave do you have anyone, family or friend perhaps, to support you? Going it alone is hard. I'd also suggest you have something to go to, not necessarily another job straight away, but another thing the occupies you mind and hopefully gives you pleasure. Until I went back to uni and then on to an occupation in education I felt very lost.
As I said I'm not recommending any particular course of action, just thinking over how I felt. If you would like to talk some more you'd be welcomed
Croix
