Panic attack!! ! ! ! ! ! !

[ci]

So I've just had pretty major panic attack and I'm needing to vent. So scary and awful experience. My poor husband was witness to it all and I feel so bad for him!

I feel like a waste of space. My husband and kids deserve so much more than me. Why can't I get control of this.

[Doctor who_aspy]

Most important thing to remember is that it is not your fault. I experience these every day and all i do is say to myself "you are not your attack..you are strong and brave" hope this helps

[ci]

Thank-you doctor who_aspy

Haven't had a panic attack for a while used to have them daily to. Was big shock to the system and so scary. The look on my husband face just breaks my heart.

He a wonderful man went and got us some pizza and a movie we cuddled up as a family and watched it. Helped so much but can't help but feel like a failure and embarrassed.

Your words are comforting and I'm going to try to tell myself the same thing.

Thank-you!

[blondguy]

Hello CI

Good to speak to you again. I used to get chronic anxiety attacks for many years and I remember how scary they were. Anxiety attacks are just like having a physical illness. The panic itself is adrenaline based which makes it physical in nature.

'Controlling anxiety is the same as 'fighting' it. It will only make it worse. I cant remember if you have a great doc but well worth a visit so you can get some practice using 'calm and true acceptance'...it only really means that we accept anxiety as bad feelings and let the panic 'float' over us.

Anxiety is an illness, please dont feel sorry for your husband because you were unwell. The best way to find peace with this anxiety disorder is regular counseling. The anxiety will lessen in its severity 🙂

People with diabetes dont feel like a waste of space or guilty and neither should you ci.

My kind thoughts for you

Paulx

[ci]

Thanks Paul

I know you are right and I know not to fight or control my anxiety but for some reason I seem to forget that sometimes.

Last night was horrible really bad panic attack I couldn't move my whole body was numb I couldn't get any air in so many times felt like was going to pass out. Haven't had an attack that bad in months.

I am the first to say my ocd is an illness like any physical illness and I strongly speak out to try and help others to see the same thing but I couldn't get that in my head last night not when my husband had the look of disappointment I just felt his disappointment and embarrassed for letting him see me like that.

This is hard to face everyday. I want more for my and my family's life than living this.

Thanks again for replying you are definitely right with what you say.

[blondguy]

Hey CI

I didnt mean to underplay the severity of your attack. Interesting your breathing was tight...you really must have had some adrenaline pumping and tensed up muscles for that to happen....that is a severe attack

I hope your husband wasnt disappointed CI...I know you said he looked that way..I just hope he wasnt. Life is too short for you to have these dreadful attacks. I had to use meds after 12 years of acute anxiety...I had no other choice. Been on the AD's since 1997 now...(for the anxiety)

I hope you have some peace ci 🙂

Paulx