Well, here goes. Struggled through Christmas, had older sister and family visit from NZ which was lovely, very full on, very noisy, all routine went out the window ( I thrive on routine). Anyway they went home on the 28th, my daughter went away with friends for a week and I fell in a heap. My anxiety was pushed to the limit and I think the whole expectation of a great Xmas lunch, having people here, general family "chaos"just got to me. Maybe tiredness combined with a lot of emotion, considering the Xmas period, and just too much happening at once pushed me to the limit. Oh yeah and I went back to work on the 29th, so that was a huge struggle.
Anyway now the good part, I've been meditating for about a month to deal with anxiety, and I would highly recommend it, I feel so much calmer and in control. Also have signed up to a diet/exercise program on-line, which involves keeping a daily written record of progress for comparison down the track. I feel so much better even after just 4 days. I'm eating better, being far more positive, and not beating myself up if I can't do the amount of exercise recommended.
I guess I'm posting this because I want to pass on that there can be light at the end of the tunnel. I've taken a risk signing up for this program, which is something I've not done for a long time. There is not going to be a risk of failure, because just taking the steps I have mean I'm better than I was 9 months ago when diagnosed with depression. I've been so closed down in my thought processes that I felt like I was worth nothing. So maybe it's the whole New Year thing that has pushed me to feel better. Posting this makes me accountable which will help me stay on track. Happy New Year all
