It’s been maybe around 2 years now since I’ve devilled this “anxiety” I never experienced any type of anxiousness before, I was pretty out going actually, one night, some things happen that lead to me having my very first panic attack, me I completely freaked out because I thought I was going to die from it, the ambulance was called (just from my panic attack) and ever since that night nothing has been the same...I remember the first couple of weeks, when I couldn’t control the actual panic attacks on would break down while making breakfast, or just little things would set me off and I’ve have one, I started some low dosage medication and it slowed the panic attacks, I haven’t had one in along time and I think I think that’s a plus, however I can’t get over the fact that I can’t do anything without washing my hands, get a drink from the fridge, wash my hands to have a smoke, everything I do, I just can’t not wash my hands and I haven’t got a clue why, I can’t take drinks/cigarettes off friends because I’m so nervous about what’s inside them, it’s ruined a lot of things in my life, I honestly have no idea how to start repairing myself because everything’s so overwhelming when I try to think about it for too long it just makes me upset because I never used to be like this and now, it’s like a switch in my brain was just flicked, it’s so sad.
