Kinda over it

[Andre_P]

People may remember me. The guy that spent 3 agonising months trying to acquire a house.

to be brief I’m doing slightly better but I still am fighting with myself everyday - with ocd and I am still not even close to be in a position to find work. I have managed to suppress the fear I have to a point, but I am doing sh*t loads of avoidance, more time consuming rituals and in general just not happy with where I want to be. My sleeping patterns are very poor too, always going to be wired and waking up tired. This whole this is actually depressing me too.

im waiting on an appointment with my specialist (urologist) so that I can tackle my fear head on and do exposure therapy with ritual rejections/resistance. Unfortunately this will take time and now Centrelink are not accepting any more of my certificates.

I have also booked an app with a psychiatrist now to get a full diagnosis. Since Centrelink have left me no choice I am going to be applying did the disability support pension. As I also have a physical disability with my shorter leg and back pain too which I will add on it.

I don’t plan to be on this forever but I need some help. Any tips on applying for dsp.

this is not ultimately what I wanted but my condition definitely isn’t temporarily at this point of time. I hate the system and I’m feeling really down.

I just want to be like I used to be 2 years ago - happy and normal 😕

[Andre_P]

It supposed to say always going to bed wired and waking up tired *

[Andre_P]

For the disability pension *

[Doolhof]

Hi Andre_P,

Sorry to read that you have a few things you are trying to deal with right now. It can be tough when we seem to be fighting on so many levels.

Can you select one issue and break down how you are going to deal with that?

I have heard from others that the whole Centrelink/disability pension can be quite a journey. If you haven't done so already, phone or contact Centrelink and find out exactly what you need to start the process of applying for a disability pension. It is quite a process.

Take someone along to Centrelink appointments if possible. Make notes. Write down people's names so you have a contact person and reference numbers also help. Gather up as much documentation as you can.

You may need support as you deal with the Centrelink process. I have been made aware Centrelink do have social workers you can sometimes talk to as well.

I don't have OCD so I don't understand what you are experiencing and how it affects you so intensely. It must be very draining and tiring for you. When I have low days I have severe procrastination and seem to just get stuck, shut down doing absolutely nothing, so a different situation to you altogether.

Hope the psychiatrist is able to help and ask them for an honest opinion about what is required for a DSP.

Wishing you positive outcomes!

Regards from Dools

[Andre_P]

Hi there, thank you for the reply. Yes I have a psychosomatic condition which I don’t want to put on here in too much detail. I do have a plan to get through the whole thing and come out 100% on the other side. It just takes time and that is the reason I need help from Centrelink.

I know they have the 2 years diagnosed treated and stable thing but I’ll work my way around it. I don’t plan on staying on the disability support pension but I want help while I’m down. I would be happy to stay on jobseeker if they would continue to take certificates, plus the new rate will eventually jump back.

I gotta try and stay positive. One day at a time 👊🙂

[Doolhof]

Hi Andre_P,

It does sound like you have put a lot of thought into your plans. I totally understand that at times in our lives we require some help and assistance. I hope you are able to access all you need so you can proceed and get better.

Earlier this year I required mental health support and gained that through phone calls to support services like Beyond Blue and Life Line. It helped me immensely to have people to talk to who were understanding, who listened and acknowledged I was struggling.

Are there things you can do for yourself that will help to lift your mood? Are there activities you enjoy that give you a sense of well-being and contentment?

You certainly don't need to disclose information here you don't feel comfortable sharing. I do hope you are able to receive the help supportive care you need and desire.

Kind regards from Dools

[Andre_P]

I try to do things but my condition will ramp up when I get too far out of my comfort zone and when it doesn’t it’s immensely debilitating. Until I see the urologist and work on my fear I am unable to do much to be honest.

I wish Centrelink knew how distressing this is. I am happy cuz I know I’ll get through this but I need some help along the way - financial. As for emotional support I do have mum here. I do see my psychologist too.

thank you for replying 🙂

[Andre_P]

When it does*

[Andre_P]

👊

[Andre_P]

I’ll try keep you updated. Have a good weekend 🙂

thx again 👊