It’s back

[KST005]

So, after suffering from anxiety on a daily basis for a few years, eventually give medication a go and it worked wonders. Never an anxious moment that wasn’t normal.. I’d say it has been around 5-6 years of the good life... but now.. it’s back and in a different way. I still believe it all has to do with me thinking every little symptom is something deadly but I can’t shake it even after getting a blood test which came back fine. Now I’m finding myself questioning, is it anxiety or do I have something wrong in my brain that’s causing these symptoms. Brain tumour maybe??? Of course it’s jusr anxiety but I know me, until I can medically rule anything out, I’ll never be at peace. Everyday for the past month I have felt anxious in some way or another. Work mainly and on my commute but today, at home with family ands it hasn’t stopped all day. I don’t want to increase my meds but I’m being pushed real hard. Just needed to get this out there. No one understands unless they to are going through it

[Anne1303]

Hi there, I hear exactly where u are coming from. After being on medication for a few years I was cruising along fine and went off it about 6 months ago and have slowly gone down hill since until a few days ago when I completely crashed. Like you, I feel like I can never be st leave with constant anxieties and fears running through my head. I have started back on medication again after seeing my dr and I know it takes awhile to kick it but I am struggling hard today. Have u seen your dr again to see what they say? I can’t help much I’m sorry but hopefully it helps you to know you are not alone and in this place on your own .

[Birdy77]

Dear KST005 (& waves to Anne1303 😊),

I can totally relate to your fears about health symptoms and whatnot.

Welcome, by the way, i am glad you've reached out here because there are loads of us here who have gone through / are going through similar things.

I've not been medicated, but my goodness, my mind goes to the worst possible scenario for every single little physical problem ... got a little rash on my arm, it must be cancerous. Got a headache, brain tumour. Bloodshot eyes, burst some vital something-or-other in my head.

At least you've had blood tests and had them come back clear. I'm too scared to get the tests because I'm convinced it's all wretched and I'm doomed, but I don't want to know it's true!

Sorry I blabbed on about me, but I also, along with Anne, just want you to know you're not alone.

I hope you find this place comforting, I'm glad you're here (and you too Anne).

🌻birdy

[KST005]

Thanks Birdy (and Anne) for your responses. As terrible and as selfish as it sounds, there is something easing knowing that others feel what I feel even though I hope none of you do. It’s so frustrating that I can have my mind occupied and feeling “normal” at times in the day but then most times it’s just a mess and the feeling that sits within my body, even my brain is sometimes too much that I think I’ll pass out, throw up or drop dead even. The gp suggested to not increase medication and that I should be able to recover on my own but if I have one good day these days, that’s all I get and feel if the increase in meds doesn’t help then surely it’s something else right.. but I even it’s that damn anxiety just taking me for a ride.. it’s crazy to think your brain can over power you and makes you think who you are. Just a brain, or a person

[Birdy77]

Dear KST (hi to Anne, I hope you are ok),

I totally understand! I am the same, when I talk about my problems and someone says "me too" the first thing I think is "oh thank goodness", and the second thing I think is "you poor thing!"

I'm glad you've come here and feel perhaps a little bit less alone in your fears and anxieties.

It's so hard when you're in the grips of a bad day or whatever to try to separate yourself from your thoughts. It takes practice, and even then sometimes it seems impossible.

Have you decided to go with your doctors advice about increasing your medicine?

I hope you have had some moments of calm today. I have had a mix of calm with dread. A winning combination right?

🌻birdy