Congratulations HannahG. Might be a strange way to start a response but well done on the baby. Understandably your hormones are through the roof and it's only natural that your mind is racing. You summed it all up perfectly with the comments thoughts are just thoughts and watch your Psychotherapist's eyes light up when you deliver him that little beauty.
For yourself though, you have guilt, worry, obsession running through your mind like a freight train. Can't be doing you, the baby and certainly your husband who seems to be a trusting type of guy. So, how do we pull the chain in the carriage that causes the train to screech to a halt? 1) Don't try to take the thoughts on, they will go nowhere except to make you feel bad. 2)Psychologically and Physiologically you have a perfect calm and beautiful healing force in operation. I'd start to focus more on that. The obvious names, etc can be the beginning of some lovely comments with your husband (he too needs to be involved for quite a few reasons). 3) Integrate more with your children and gleam as much as you can from them on how they feel. I'm sure they will be excited. 4) You are not alone, in spite of all the rubbish the thoughts throw at you, your support is there. The present is your best friend (because it's now) and the past is the real enemy. Trust your family more. I always say "Trust is the Dust". Remember when Tinkerbell sprinkles her dust, and all the magic starts to happen? Well that's what trust does. It occupies the mind so much that there's no room for the past to creep in - BINGO there you go. People say that you can't change the past. Well actually you can! You can change the affect the past has on you. It's enough that we makes mistakes once, but to re-live them over and over every day is far worse. Each tiny little heartbeat inside you is another confirmation that you are living in the present and your trust is growing.
