I over analyse EVERYTHING. I can't make a decision until I assess every variable or have a panic attack.
I can't seem to decide on the big things or small things in my life. I'm so worried about making mistakes I take careful and calculated time to decide my next move in life.
Ihave worked hard to make good decisions in my life so far but I almost refuse to let myself make a mistake. I have a good full time job opportunity at my fingertips but I lack so much confidence even though the boss tells me I'm capable in the role. I want to recluse and persue working partime for my partners business from home with reduced hours to take the pressure off and let me rethink my career/ direction. I probably am capable of the full time job if I tried harder but I keep going around in circles with myself about if I actually WANT to do the job anymore or if Im just afraid of turning down the pay.
I have analysed the hell out of the situation from so many angles it confuses until I have full anxiety. I do this with everything. i feel like a yo yo. I fear if I walk away from the job opportunity I've let the anxiety take over (win), but if I don't listen to my anxiety and walk away or try a different path then it will only get worse. How do I know if it's the job I don't want to do or if it's the anxiety making me feel incompetent? If I feel sick with anxiety shouldn't I stop doing it? Someone please save me from my own mind.
