Hi N.P
I had a similar problem before, I had always overthought about life has no meaning and we all will die someday, to be honest, life has no meaning for sure in my opinion, but we are humans trying to put meaning to it, that is all. And I think not only you, but me and others also think why should we try hard if we know someone is better than us or we are going to die anyways. Humans are social creature, if we all think that way and give up then we all go extinct, none of us would be born and I would never have a chance to reply your post now, however, reality does not work like that, you and me may think that way but others think differently, so I recommend you to have a walk to talk with everyone just small talks, learning something new no matter you hate or like it, try everything until you find what you are good at and make contributions for that to a group, club, company....etc you name it. Life for sure has no meaning but we are born to put the meaning for it. I dont know about you, but if I think if I die without doing anything good for society or finish my responsibility, i dont want to die just yet, at least I have to be responsible and pay for what I owned such as fees and efforts myy parents raised me up, it is so underrated, people think that is the parent's responsibility, but I do not think so, that is their kindness to our existence because we always made fuss to them when we were kids. So to me, We have to be responsible to pay the debt that we own in this life physically and mentally. Do you love your parents, why dont make something to make them happy, do you love your friends, listen to their problems and give advices and share with them anything things interested, do you know there are a lot of people out there, waiting for you to make friends and discover them, fates and destiny want you to do that, i dont know about you, but im curious that 10 years later before i die, who would i become who i can meet...etc so many mysteries, if i die, i can not see them to fulfill my path in life, moreover, natural is somehow always better than man-made or artificial right, then natural death is also much better. I hope it is helpful.
