I’m so tired of myself and my mental health.

[Giraffe]

Hi everyone. I’m 51 and a nurse. I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression nearl my whole life. It’s been really bad the last year or so, I’m really sad today and oh so lonely. Nearly my whole life I feel this way. I’m so done with it. Wish my life was over.

I’m a single parent to a 19 year old boy. He still lives at home but I hardly ever see him, he’s very busy. I have no partner and have been single for nearly 20 years. I don’t see this ever changing. I don’t see my life ever changing for the better either. I just wanted to tell someone.

[Petal22]

That’s great......

I once had severe anxiety.... OCD.... I seeked professional help for it and am now recovered... I was given many tools for it... have you been given any?

mindfullness was one, I practice gratitude, I exercise which is great 😊 it s something I look forward to and it makes me feel good with the endorphins release..... if I walk outside I try to be mindful of all the beautiful things around me.... the sky, fresh air , trees , sunshine on my body it takes me out of my mind and into the present moment... have you tried exercise?

I know when you are feeling down our mind gives us so many reasons not to do something positive so if yours does go against your mind and push yourself out there and do it.....

[Giraffe]

I’m struggling today. It’s my day off. I feel really alone ( like usual), I went to see my psychologist and cried my eyes out about my childhood. Just waiting for my son to get home. It’s so quiet here. I hate it.

[Petal22]

Ohhh sorry you are feeling this way today, I understand some days are better than others.....

that’s great you had a chat to your psychologist I believe crying is a part of healing....

have you thought about anything you would like to do on your days off? Maybe organise to go out and have a coffee with a friend or join a group or an exercise class?

You have so much to live for and enjoy...... the best is yet to come....

Have you tried to practice gratefulness?

I was once a very negative person but when I went through my mental Illness I decided to change the way I saw the world and the people in it.. I chose to embrace positivity, love, light and compassion and this is what I choose to focus on now, my life has become so so beautiful since I decided to change my mindset..... in return of doing this I know hold a positive feeling inside ....which is something I will always be grateful for.... it takes practice to change your mindset but once you do a whole new world opens up 😊

You are never alone 😊

[quirkywords]

Giraffe

i am sorry you are struggling today.
Did crying to your psychologist make you feel any better or drained.
I am glad you have friends and attend a support group.

Do your friends and the support group help you. Can you talk to them. I have never had a support group. .?

[TheWookie]

Hi giraffe. I know how hard it is to be alone. I will be alone with you.