I'm scared!

[Bluey_moon]

I'm really scared! 

Im scared I'm a bad mum (it's my daughters first day of second grade and I'm worried about me)

I'm scared I'm a bad wife (I constantly cry and unload on my husband)

I'm scared the mental health team are wrong, they say I don't have a psyciatrict illness and I just have to work hard to get better! 

Im scared I can't work hard anymore and I'll get worse and destroy my family! 

Im scared of over analysing every sound I hear! 

Im scared it'll never get better and I can't do it anymore! 

I'm so so scared! 

[Elaja25]

Hi blue moon! 

Dont worry i feel same way here your not alone, my anxiety attacks me again lastnight I  think i only had couple of hours of sleep so im feeling not myself again today you know what i'm scared of is my health issue that not so serious i just making fool to myself again that causes my anxiety but this time i manage not to scared and calm myself, last week it was very  awful really dont now what to do that causes me not to sleep for 2 nights i cried i worried too much of nothing but with the help of my husband  my kids my family and this forum  and a consultation to a gp it helps me to relive my worries...now what i do to avoid the negative thoughts i make myself busy do some interesting things i go out i talk so some friends... I hope it work for you

elaja25 😊

[Guest_5218]

Oh Bluey Moon, I'm so sorry that you have all these fears.

Of course I am unable to take away your fears, but I want you to know that I understand, I care and I support you from afar.

I realise that may not be very helpful to you right now, and I wish I could do more.  However I am thinking of you, and I hope you will accept a reassuring warm hug from me.  I need one too, so it will help both of us.

Sherie xx

[Durras]

Hi Bluey Moon,

I hear exactly where your coming from thou a few differences my daughter is now going onto 16 but yet I still feel I am a useless mother, she just told me she is sexually active and I don't know how to handle that one with balancing being a friend and a mother. she lives with her dad.

I have a wonderful husband and tried unloading on him and he is supportive but I tend to keep things more to myself and work through them as I feel he doesn't understand but I am grateful for his support.

I'm not working at the moment and I keep thinking when will I get well to work, I'm starting a Nursing course to help but then I think will people want to hire me as I feel useless and so many better candidates out there then me so I will still fail at the course or not get a job. I feel hopeless and useless all the time and often quietly cry myself to sleep from all the constant roller coaster ride in my mind.

Bluey Moon all I can suggest is try to make yourself little goals for each day which I have done today and this has been one of my worst days in all honesty I'm right now medicating on alcohol to get me through today, I know it is stupid and wrong of me but it is how I get through me day.

I'm scared my ways will destroy my family with my husband and with my now new relationship I have with my daughter but I can't think straight without my drink sometimes I just can't function and see clearly (again I know that sounds stupid)

Bluey Moon,

hang in there as I know things will get better. I am the same as you I am scared it will never get better but then we have to keep our little goals and try to make them happen even if they are small these little achievements will make things better and us feel better.

As I said I have been self medicating today on alcohol so if you like scratch all I have put on here I understand as their are others on this site that can give you so much support but the reality is two weeks ago I was having an awesome week and this week I am down and this is how our sicknesses is with us UP and DOWN one step forward and two steps back (I think I am three steps back today)

I just wanted to drop you a line but don't know if it helped. HUGS

Durras

[Guest_1055]

Hey Skye

I hope you can feel my arms around you this time, you are not alone. You will be OK, you will be OK.....

With much love to you

Shelley xx

[Bluey_moon]

I just wanted to thank all of you for caring so much, it means the world to me, to have you all supporting me!

i was such a mess yesterday, I went to the mental health unit bawling! The receptionist was so kind! The lady who come to see me at first was kinda mean, saying there is nothing our service can offer you! But she sensed I was a mess I think and we had a quick chat! She again reinterated I don't have a psyciatrict illness! But she does think I'm on the wrong antidepressant! 

In the positive I'm working harder than ever and today was a better day! 

You are the kindest most caring people and I'm blessed to have your support!