dannoh89,
Hi and welcome to beyond blue.
Mere male here. Sorry. I only know one person in real life that had Post Natal Depression, and she had therapy for about 6 months (thinking out loud here). But then each person's circumstances are unique, so could be longer or shorter for others.
Am I correct in assuming that your husband is not adjusting to the "changes" (figuratively speaking) in you? You are not the same person he met because of anxiety and depression?
(I have anxiety and depression also, and have been seeing a psychologist for a year now (every 2 weeks). My kids know also; they are teens. But mine was a slow burn into the anxiety and depression.) The worst of it is that anxiety make us worry too much and think the worst. And depression make us think the worst of ourselves. A double whammy. Both fighting against each other, and doubly hard for you. But you are important and worthwhile. One thing my psychologist has taught me is that I focus on the negative too much, or minimise the positive. And slowly, bit by bit, look at the positives. We can chat about that later?
You just said that you had been diagnosed, but the following link might contain some useful information for your husband, if not you...
https://healthyfamilies.beyondblue.org.au/pregnancy-and-new-parents/maternal-mental-health-and-wellbeing/depression
You mentioned not speaking with your husband also... I also clam up when in that 'red' zone. So you are not alone there.
For the anxiety I have a number of distraction and coping tools? If you are interested I can tell you about some of these. Alternatively, you can look in the threads on grounding and mindfulness for ideas which are very good.
FWIW, I don't think this is the end.... it is your mind playing tricks on you, thinking the worst of the situation.
I hope you might come back and chat some more. But know that you are not alone in this space, and the forums are full of supportive people.
Tim
