Hi there Matilda
Welcome to Beyond Blue and thank you for providing your post – your post which would resonate with so many of us, so the answer to your question is: Yes. There are many similarities to how you feel to what so many of us experience (or have experienced).
The self-worth question, the lack of self esteem, why would people want to hang around me, I’m no good at my job, etc.
May I ask if you’ve been to the doc to discuss these issues? And if you have, what recommendations did they provide to you?
It’s awesome that you are in a job and that’s a huge bonus that you enjoy your profession – keep on with that, as that is crucial in so many respects for you. I’m also hearing that you’re studying for post graduate in your field – now I have no idea what that means, but to me, that means that you’re more cleverer than Joe Average, so might I just say here and now, that if you can, you should stop for a sec just to think about that. Undertaking extra study and doing a post grad, not only sounds awesome, it no doubt IS awesome and would mean that you’re blessed with a hell of a lot of good grey matter – and you’re putting that to good use. So with that in mind, I would be rating you as a very intelligent, clever, gifted and talented person.
You’ve also got friends – friends who want to be seen with you – another HUGE tick for you.
These are all great things Matilda. Keep thinking of yourself as being clever, as being loved by your friends, because you clearly are.
I’d also love to hear back from you.
Neil
