I feel I am slowly going crazy?

[ScarlettR]

Hello people, I hope you are all doing well this Christmas season.

So here's my issue:

Lately, I've been feeling a palette of bad emotions. I let myself overthink and overanalyse people and situations in life, and then I inflict mental abuse on myself by being angry and frustrated. I guess a lot of it comes from boredom.

The strange thing is - when I had done a big task (wrapping presents for an upcoming birthday, gone for a walk, run errands), at first I am content and happy and ready to take on what ever faces me... then I mentally unravel and I can't face the world anymore.

I don't ever lash out or make a scene. No one knows if I'm having a bad day unless I told them. The worst that happens is I cry a bit and stay in bed for some comfort. But it's not comfortable or pleasant.

I'm on meds for schizophrenia and depression. I like to add that I sometimes have trouble sleeping so it adds to my worries.

[blondguy]

Hello ScarlettR

Welcome and thankyou for your thread topic......and for your kind Christmas wishes too 🙂

I understand you where overthinking and over analyzing is concerned. I have ongoing clinical depression with leftover anxiety issues even though under management with help from my legend of a GP and my psychologist....and my meds..SSRI's and the occasional benzo when my sleep goes downhill.....ugh!

Can I ask you if you have anyone to 'vent' or talk to when you are having a bad day? I did read that no one is aware unless you let them know......which is the same as just about everyone here on the forums too!

I am sorry that you cry when you are in pain....Of course its not comfortable or pleasant....I think that would be a huge understatement. I feel your pain on this Scarlett

I try to avoid the term 'support network' as its a plural and I dont have one either. I do have a couple of people that I can talk too when I am feeling really bad and I am fortunate to have even one to talk to.

Just a note....Beyond Blue management take our privacy very seriously so we can post in a safe place....I wouldnt be on here as a volunteer if it wasnt . The forums are also non judgemental too Scarlett

Do you have a busy Christmas coming up?.....or a quiet one....I have the latter

There are also many super gentle people on the forums that can be here for you too....I really hope you can stick around and post with us....if and when you wish of course

my kind thoughts

Paul