Hello beyondblue readers, I am reaching out to anyone there who suffers from anxiety, unwanted thoughts and depression like me.
I have had anxiety since Jan or last year and it has become so much worse this year, I promised myself it was going to be a good year but so far I have broke that promise.
I feel like I am living in a dark hole and that nothing good ever comes in my life anymore.
My unwanted thoughts are robbing me from having a good and well maintained life, I am stressing myself out for no reason and I don't know what to do, I am so scared and when I look into what long term anxiety can do to the body I burst into tears.
I had a fear about death for quite sometime last year and as of last december I had a very bad incident of little hours of sleep in a week.
It was so bad that I was drinking to pass out but of course that makes me SO MUCH WORSE! I have been okay with been able to sleep but it's only because I have taken something to make me sleepy and then the next day I am drowsy and spacey. I am always thinking about fearing of not been able to sleep, it's so bad that I don't work anymore, I don't plan any events with anyone or even see anyone because I panic about not been rested.. I wanted to make music with the most humblest person I know but because of this fear I not longer get involved in music anymore.
I just can't seem to get my mind of this and it's destroying everyday, I just do the same thing everyday feeling sorry for myself and crying so much it makes me head hurt.
I am booked to see a psychologist in 3 weeks and I have medication in my dressing table draw but scared to try it.
Please someone help me or if anyone could reach out to me I'd be most grateful.
Thank you kindly, Jessica.
