I've always been an anxious person and a hypochondriac. I become very anxious about my health whenever I feel unwell. In the last couple of months I had frequent headaches for about a month. My doctor thought it was tension headaches, as I have very tight muscles in my back too. A month goes by and I feel good. This last couple weeks I started getting them again, on and off. They are not severe, but are annoying in daily life. Sometimes I also feel light headed. I went to my doctor and they think it's anxiety. But they are sending me for an MRI just to make sure everything's going okay. My MRI is next week and I'm really worried that they might find a brain tumour or something. I keep looking up brain tumour symptoms on google and some of them say frequent headaches or balance issues. Obviously brain tumours are rare, but I don't want them to find anything. I'm not ready to die yet and there's so much more I want to do. The wait for the procedure and trying to get results is really hard. I just want to know what's happening to me, but I don't want it to be something bad. I have become so obsessed with researching symptoms and statistics, I keep annoying everyone in my life by talking about it consistently. It's extremely hard to stop thinking about it.
Right now, I feel good. No headache, barely any light headedness. My doctor gave me muscle relaxants to try to relax my tense muscles, I feel like they made me worse because one of the side effects are dizziness. This morning I feel super dizzy, after resting I then felt better. Some days I feel okay. But every morning my first thought is that I hope I don't have a headache or feel lightheaded today. I'm only in my 20s, there's no history of brain tumours in my family. It's just very hard right now and I hate being so worried and obsessive about it.
Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this.
