Giving up

[Ballerina]

I just need to vent. It's 2.26 in the morning and I can't sleep. My anxiety won't let me. I'm overthinking about something that I don't even know that has happened. I need to be in control of everything that happens around in my life when there's something that I can't do, that I can't control triggers my anxiety. I'm getting tired of it and honestly I don't want to have this control anymore, and that's where starts my suicidal thoughts. I just want to put an end in all of it. I'm trying to do everything right but it's hard, and overwhelming. I can't breathe.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Ballerina,

Welcome to our online community, we're so glad you decided to join us here. It can be hard to write that first post, so thank you for having the courage. It sounds like things are very difficult at the moment. We've sent you an email to check in.

Are you aware of Beyond Blue's support service? We really encourage you to get in touch to have a chat 24/7 on 1300 22 4636

You've mentioned you feel like ending it, those thoughts are really normal when you're struggling. It sounds like you want to end the anxiety and pain. There are other ways to do this though, please know you're not alone and support is out there. If you feel you may act on these thoughts and do something to harm yourself, it is really important to take steps to keep yourself safe, such as:

- Attending the Emergency Department of your local hospital
- Calling 000
- Speaking with us

Let us know how you're going

BeyondBlue

[jtjt_4862]

Hi Ballerina,

Anxiety can be tough, as what you've said reminded me of a dear friend of mine, who also mentioned something similar to what you said too. She said her anxiety feels like it's drowning her, and she's struggling to keep afloat. She feels the need to control things, to be able to meet the demands that her anxiety has placed onto her. When she can't keep up with the demands, that's when it feels like she's suffocating and tired.

I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this hard moment. You're really brave to be posting in this forum, and I'm really glad that you did too. It takes a lot of courage to share your difficult moments and seeking for help. The forums are filled with wonderful support, and very loving people, so you're never alone Ballerina. We're always here to listen to you if you'd like to chat more, and you're never a burden to us.

Jt

[Petal22]

Hi Ballerina,

Sorry you are feeling this way…

I understand anxiety I had severe anxiety OCD, I have now recovered from this condition.

My anxiety also had me awake at night and I found it hard to get back to sleep.

Have you seeked help from health professionals for your anxiety?

I received professional help, I don’t know were I’d be without their help.

Anxiety is difficult it’s more difficult when the anxiety brings up suicidal thoughts…. It can be quite scary….

Please know your not alone, there are a lot of lovely people on this forum who I’m sure would like to support you..

im here to chat to you