Feeling trapped

[Euphorie]

I have unfortunately bought a place next door to a hoarder. They hoard animals and junk. I didn’t know and I couldn’t see the place until all the trees got cut down. It’s traumatic to see it. The first warning was the dozens of barking dogs. Then other red flags started. It’s been super scary since November and I am really struggling now. I have a protection order to help me since they also have taken to screaming at me, and put up a sign saying they’ll shoot. Meanwhile I am selling. I’ve built a big fence but not on the boundary as it was a case of no tradies would do it they were all threatened too. It’s not exactly ideal. My money is going down the drain. The local authorities wash their hands of responsibility. I live only inside with nobody to talk to but I have a few friends I have told. My child has two brain lesions and suffers severe epilepsy. They’ve been to ER and inpatient more than a dozen times this year. My life is not going great. I had major surgery this year. I feel like nobody will buy this place now. That all my best effort’s are wasted, that I am so weak I can’t drive even, that I only have police support, that I will never get out of what really is a Living hell. I try to stay positive I try to cope with the 24/7 noise pollution from next door but I am starting to fall apart. There’s no real laws to help this situation. I really need some love and hope. Thanks for being here.

[Sophie_M]

 
Dear Euphorie,

We’re so grateful to have you reach out to our community this morning and are so sorry to hear everything you have going on at the moment. Times like this can definitely get overwhelming . We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you. 

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Keep checking back in with us whenever you feel up to it. 

[Petal22]

Hi Euphorie,

Wellcome to our forums!

So sorry how things are for you at the moment…….

Im sorry you have horrible neighbours that must be so distressing for you…..

Sorry to hear about your son, he’s lucky to have a great parent like you…..

Someone will buy your place…. There is always HOPE…. Try to stay positive….

I hope you are recovering well from your surgery….

Do you have any other options for living arrangements?

I really hope things start to look up for you soon 😊

[Euphorie]

Hi Petal thank you so much for your support it means a lot to wake to find this message and the message from the moderator too. It’s my daughter who’s unwell I didn’t say before. I don’t have anywhere to go I have no money left sadly. And with lockdown I can’t stay with anyone. To be honest it’s not really safe to leave my things here anyway it’s pretty remote I would be worried about them. One thing I am suffering are severe trauma nightmares they’re really bad. I am being murdered in nightmares and I wake screaming out. I sweat with them too. Has anyone else experienced this part of anxiety and ptsd? Do you have any advice for me about how you dealt with that? I have a GP appointment on Tuesday so I can talk on Telehealth about that and see what they say. One of the challenges I have had since surgery is lack of sleep due to the neighbours 24/7 noise pollution and I think that it’s now too much for my subconscious. I also worry about my child I think even when I am asleep. I really appreciate the positive affirmation that someone will buy my house. I’ve lost weight and lost a lot of hope. It’s pretty scary. So I am glad I have taken a leap of faith and finally decided to blog here and reach out. I will get my life back and I will get support until that happens. Pretty shaky this morning tough night. Any tips are gratefully received for reduced night terrors thank you 🙏🏼

[Petal22]

Good morning Euphorie,

Happy to support you 😊

Im sorry your daughter is unwell, maybe you could do some lovely things inside with your daughter…. Read books together, play games, bake cookies……… put on some beautiful music…. Burn some lovely smelling candles……

I understand lockdown must be difficult……. We are here for you….

im so sorry to hear of your trauma nightmares they must be so difficult for you, please talk to your gp about them… I highly recommend meditation…. You could find a guided one on your phone they are very relaxing once you get the hang of them you can learn to go into your peaceful place any time…… practice your breathing…. Slow it down…..

Thats great you have an appointment with your gp…. Please let me know how you go…… let them know how you are feeling…… ❤️

Tell yourself :

Everything will work out.

Things will get better.

You are important.

You are worthy of great things.

You are loveable.

The time is now.

This too shall pass.

You can be who you really are.

The best is yet to come.

You are strong.

You can do this.

“ We believe what we tell ourselves “ stay positive…….

im here to chat to you 😊🙏

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Euphorie,

Can I also offer you a very warm and caring welcome to these forums..

I am deeply sorry that your going through so much anguish due to your neighbours, constant noise, yelling, and dogs barking...That’s so not alright that the council/police won’t do anything to help you...I really do hope that someone buys it off you fairly quickly...

I struggle at time with nightmares about my demise, from someone who has passed away...PTSD doesn’t seem to give us a break at times...

What helps me to go to sleep at night...is listening to a gentle voice reading me a sleep story...I try to put all my effort into listening to him..yet at times my mind still wanders..so I catch myself and start listening again to the sleep story...A few apps have them but I prefer going through YouTube and listening to “Dan Jones” sleep stories....Most times when I fall asleep with a peaceful mind I don’t have the nightmares as much...maybe it’s something that you might want to try...

I would like to send you my love and care dear Euphorie, with a warm gentle hug...🤗..We care for you and are here for you when you feel like talking..

Grandy..

[Euphorie]

Thank you Grandy and Petal for sharing your experience and kindness I hope I can pay it forwards to someone who needs kindness in anxious times one day. I look at the old me before the traumas started and I wonder where she went. On the outside people think I have it all cos I never talk. I keep it inside. I have seen psychologist lately but it wasn’t helpful and they were peer sharing instead of offering me strategies which wasn’t why I was going. Then one day I got a late start stood in the rain waiting then they finished my session early complaining that another lady was in the rain waiting so I guess they couldn’t help me and that was a way of saying don’t come back. I’m not there to share their similar stories it wasn’t empathy it was intellectual peer sharing. I found in really low times ringing this service better tbh. Ty so much for the ideas about nightmares and sleep I have been doing box breathing and that calms my mind for a bit. I have a lot of responsibilities and not much energy as you can imagine and it’s one nuisance after another living next door to acres of hoarding and animal hoarding. It’s very sad. Dozens of dogs in cages for example and the authorities have hardly any legal action they can use. Well I won’t let that person rent space in my head they have already woken me up. I will listen to a guided meditation and thank you and I will keep in touch I feel safe here

ty so much from Euphorie

[Petal22]

Hi Euphorie,

LOVE sharing my experiences with you and kindness 😊 happy to support you 😊

I understand what are you saying with remembering the old you before the trauma…….. I used to think the same thing while I was in the grips of OCD I remember saying I want the old me back… were has she gone? But do you know what through all of the darkness I believe I was actually transforming into a better me! I believe I had to go through what I went through to come out the other side a more wiser, kinder, understanding compassionate person….. I believe we grow through what we go through…… “ Just when I thought my life was ending I got a brand new beginning “…………. I can look back and see how far I have come……… you too will be able to do this in time 🦋

I’m so sorry you experienced what you experienced with your psychologist that must have been very disheartening………. Please know all health professionals aren’t like that…. Maybe you could try a new one?

Would the RSPCA help you with the dogs in cages? That’s must be horrible to witness..

Yes please try the guided meditation it’s wonderful….

Please keep in touch, I’m happy to hear you feel safe here 😊

[Miz]

Hi Euphorie,

Welcome to the forums - I'm sorry you've been struggling, it sounds like you and your daughter have had a really hard time.

I've dealt with intense noise pollution before and I understand how it can make you feel completely out of control and overwhelmed. The constant sounds make it feel like you can never have peace. Some things I have done to cope in the past:

- Buy some sleeping ear plugs from the pharmacy, they can be really helpful to block out the sound at night

- Play some gentle music or a podcast at night to distract you from the sound

- Guided meditations are helpful to relax as well

I also find that going outside and escaping the sound for a bit can help reset your mind and relax. I'm glad you're talking to your GP and using health services. Speaking to animal rights organisations about the animals as well might help, especially as it seems to be a very distressing situation.

Stay strong and feel free to chat when you need. You're doing an amazing job!

Miz

[Euphorie]

Thank you for your kind words and support. So I got the vax, and now I have the side effects to get through ons day at a time. Fatigue is the one I have. But I had an overwhelming sense of relief from getting my first dose. I had to wait until now because of my surgery this year because I had a clotting risk. So far all good except the tiredness which I will ride out with Panadol and sleep. I did it for me but mostly my family. I didn’t realise how much anxiety I was carrying waiting for the all clear to get the vax post my surgery! Wow what a load lifted. Re next door they are still as noisy and hoarding as ever. I tried earplugs and wound up with an ear infection so I am on ear drops from the doctor! Insult to injury there! The weekend is nearly here, maybe something will shift and a buyer will come, who knows…. I hope that anyone else who suffers anxiety and PTSD like me is going okay in these times of uncertainty we are all feeling in our various ways. Chamomile tea is my best friend at present and I am a bit too tired to be on screens, but I wanted to say thank you and to share some positive motion and some feelings of gratitude 🙏🏼 take care from Euphorie 💝