Hi Beanybean. Welcome to the forum. Congratulations on having the courage to reach out for support.
From my experience as a manager, I have found that it is not uncommon for new team members to feel the way you do. It is not easy joining a new work environment, it is stressful and anxiety provoking by nature. Please don't be too hard on yourself. You clearly want the job, so I would like to offer some suggestions that may help you.
The first is to look at the "evidence" and try to keep it top of mind. You landed the job. And this means you have relevant skills, experience and talent. The evidence shows that you have been chosen in a competitive environment above all others and this means your input is sought and you are inherently valued.
The second is to consider if a chat with your manager/supervisor could help. It is their job to assist you in settling into the role. You haven't mentioned why you have been tearful at work but if your colleagues are behaving inappropriately toward you, if the workplace culture is not quite right, then your manager should be able to help.
You say you have "never been good in groups". Can I ask if you have considered speaking with your GP?
With the right assistance it could be that you can improve your abilities, which would benefit you now and in future, and talking with your GP would be a great place to start.
If you'd like to keep talking, please keep posting. I will keep an eye on this thread and I encourage you to monitor your thread too. I am also fairly new to these forums but I've learned that there is a vast array of kind, caring people who participate but sometimes it just takes a bit of time to see the posts.
