This is my first time talking about my experiences with anxiety and depression and hopefully this won't be the last time and is a positive experience.
Just over a year ago I was 28 and burnt out from my demanding job. At the height of that, my girlfriend of 8 years chose to end our relationship and moved out and moved states and cut off all communication. Needless to say it completely destroyed me and I have never experienced such heartache in my life and a time when I’ve questioned everything in my life.
I wasn’t good at reaching out to friends to talk about what I was going through and they were oblivious to what was going on.
The effects of the breakup impacted my work life and the stress I caused myself worry about the breakup and work caused me to get extremely unwell.
I proceeded to feel extremely unwell for months and experienced a ridiculous range of symptoms that my DR told me were physical manifestations of stress and depression. This caused even more stress as I became more depressed and anxious that I wasn’t getting any better and was struggling with motivation and energy at work.
My latest DR in a long line of DRs tells me that the prolonged period where my body was producing extremely high levels of cortisol has weakened my immune system. I’ve been told that it should improve in time, but constantly getting sick and feeling like I always have the flu, tired, and having aching joints constantly makes it hard to stay positive and I catastrophize any little thing that is wrong with my health to the point I’ve developed severe anxiety surrounding fear of getting sick so much that I make myself sick from stressing about it worrying that there some underlying condition that DRs aren't picking up.
The more I've started to speak with friends about anxiety and depression i've found that they have dealt with it as well which is sad as we could have been supporting each other through our troubles.
Hoping to read other people sharing similar issues and give support.
Thanks for your time.
