Hello Mina19, I can't explain how awful this experience must have been, but thankfully he's now in gaol and got a record against his name which will do him more harm than good.
I have also had the same experience many times myself and genuinely happens at the most inconvenient time.
It would be a good idea to have some counselling and know that you are a bit afraid to open up to a psychologist, but there are ways to overcome this.
Write down on a piece of paper, with your mum being with you what has happened, but put down in your last sentence that this is very difficult to talk about, then the psychologist will take this issue slowly.
If you want you can take your mum with you and in actual fact, your mum may also need some counselling herself.
Both of these can be provided on a 'mental health plan' which the GP can provide and what it does is allow you to have 10 free sessions per year with a psychologist.
Another option is to contact Reachout, these people are trained but dress in casual clothes and could be something to think about.
My best wishes.
Geoff.
