Constant stress and anxiety of what can go wrong at work

Lubenica · ‎07-12-2017

Hi all,

I am new here and I think I have anxiety.

I am am constantly worried and consistently over analysing emails that I have written, how I act/acted when somebody has spoken to me or tried to interact with me, peoples general demeanour towards myself and other people and so on.

I am constantly worrying about work and what I might have down wrong and then start being concerned that someone will complain about me. Then the stress starts.

I have been feeling really down lately and everything is starting to get on my nerves. I have recently found myself slowly stop caring about my job. I used to put a lot of effort into my work but I feel like I am deflated. I often feel like I do not deserve my job, my house, my trips overseas and interstate and sometimes think I am a bad person for my past mistakes.

My work colleagues tell me that I am too hard on myself and that I don’t give myself enough credit. I often feel like a bad person when I make mistakes.

I don’t really know how to approach this.

I get comments from my clients that they are happy with me but I get elation out of the praise but it soon turns to being sad and down again.

I often feel like I am being silly when I try to voice my feelings to other people as well. I think to myself stop being over dramatic.

Any advice?

blondguy · ‎07-12-2017

Hello Lubenica

Welcome to the forums and good on you for having the courage to post too!

Your work colleagues have a good point.....that you may being to hard on yourself...Sometimes when we are feeling down....our work/career does become an area where we 'overthink' I used to do the same too until I understood that I was very run down....physically as well as mentally....

Sometimes we need a 'tune up' with a good GP just so we can have a really good vent about what is happening in our lives that is making us 'overthink' and feel the way we do at work.

I have been in senior management for a long time and I see that your clients are happy with your quality of attention you provide to them....(Nice work by the way) 🙂

You are proactive with your health Lubenica.....You are an intelligent and well articulated person as well

There may be some stress happening in your life (which is your business of course) and even if there isnt making a double appointment with your GP will provide you with some peace of mind

You have everything to gain and nothing to lose by doing so.

You are really amazing for reaching out the way you have.

This is your thread and you are more than welcome to post as many times as you wish. There are many gentle people on the forums that can be here for you too

I hope you can stick around Lubenica

My Kind thoughts

Paul

Lubenica · ‎10-12-2017

Hi Paul,

Thanks for your response.

Today I feel like I don’t know what I want...I have everything I ever wanted...I have a job, I am good with my money and going on 2 trips next year, I buy myself whatever I want, I have no partner and no children to hold me back. I’m still living at home and have a great family but for some reason I’m sad and feel like I am stuck and don’t know what to do next. I was in Perth city today (I love to shop....smart shopping not impulse buying..well maybe sometimes hehe) and I felt so lost. What do I want? I don’t know....is there anything I want to buy?...I don’t know. I find that “I don’t know” is the answer to a lot of the questions I ask myself these days.

Sometimes I feel so unworthy of my life. I did a lot this year (went to the US in my own, started travelling around WA and the eastern states as of Jan 2018 and back to the US in Oct 2018. I still feel as though my life and me in particular are not good enough if that makes sense. People see me as lucky but I see myself as not good enough and seriously flawed.

Nothing is good enough in my eyes.

I lose interest in activities and things so quickly.

hope to hear from you soon