Can't trust my Gut

Guest_937
Community Member

 

 I've always been a 'worrier' and my job (lawyer) exacerbates my  tendency to catastrophise things  

 In the past 5 or so years I've had some pretty big things happen in my life- kids, moving, renovating, part of big legal case (as witness), threats of being sued, parents divorce, financial problems  These things are the source of my anxiety  

 The thing is, I read other people's stories of anxiety and think they are being irrational. When I think of the things I stress over, I of course think it's perfectly normal and acceptable to stress over it- my fear seems rational and normal given the circumstances.  Wouldn't you stress if you were being sued?!

So do I really suffer from anxiety or is it just normal stress? 

 I am struggling to identify what is 'my anxiety talking' and what is a real fear- I have lost my ability to trust my gut when it comes to assessing risk  

Has anyone felt like this?

 

 

 

 

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white knight
Community Champion
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Hi JamesN, Welcome

GP's have a simple test to assess depression and stress and of course that is your first point of call and a regular one at that.

I was nick named the "worrier" at 12yo by a teacher so I know a little about that. It might have been that I had a domineering mother or that her anxiety was way over the top. But it was very present.

It remained and at 31yo it climaxed in a workplace incident. I was put off work and from then on I had to be educated at to how to deal with it. Medication helped for the first 12 years. Muscle tensioning exercises and deep breathing also helped more than what people think. Change of abode to the country and ridding my life of toxic people all play a part as did getting my finances in check.

You are right however that being sued would freak most of us out. However some issues that we face should be put into correct perspective. Worry is non productive. It achieves nothing.

And other things that you are worried about like your parents divorce....you have no or very little control over. So again, worrying about it isn't the way to go. To get this into perspective is to concern yourself with their welfare and support them emotionally but not to worry.

Worry for me now (28 years since that WP incident) is non existent. My employment history started out in the RAAF then prison officer, security, private investigator and so on. I know what its like to take on threats or the fear of legal action. But is it realistic to spend time on the possibility of it? No. So, these possibilities are part of the "game" as I see it.

Learn to play the game by watching how others play it. Learn their techniques, how they handle situations and draw from them their wisdom. I used to observe older prison officers how they endured day after day the prison routines as a stable worker. Of course with my mental illness issues I had no idea I had at the time I wasn't able to copy them very much but I did hang around a few years and learned a lot.

Relaxation classes aren't a waste of time, medication if prescribed helps you along your way therapy can assist and self help ideas I've listed shouldn't be ignored. 

Finally....our minds need rest periods. Make sure you have those times. Find your own way to rest. Mine is to take a youtube recording of Prem Rawat Maharaji sunset and the perfect instrument (google them) and climb a hill. Watch the sunset. Get back to basic life. Periods away from the rat race.

Tony WK

Thank you for your response Tony WK. You are very kind. 

Dear James

Hello, welcome to Beyond Blue. It's good to see people writing in to ask for help. Not good that they have problems.

I endorse Tony's comments. He knows this area very well. And it is important to recognise the difference between worry and natural concern. I think I would be scared stiff if someone decided to sue me for something. Not sure how I would manage. I know I have a tendency to be anxious and I am working on differentiating between legitimate cares and others. It's not easy, and even when the situation is stressful you need a way to defuse the worry. Tony has suggested some possibilities above.

It's a good idea to recognise which parts of a situation you have control over and which not. For me, practicing mindfulness and my meditation is great. These are things I do all the time, not just in stressful circumstances.  Learning to keep your mind under control does not happen during stress. Rather you need to practice being in control at all times so that when something happens you have the tools to manage. Mostly I have learned to manage panic attacks, although on occasions they hit out of the blue with such force I collapse like jelly. But it's a work in progress.

Yes, it's amazing how well we rationalize our behaviours as being OK but can clearly see the irrationality of others. It is the mote in your brother's eye as opposed to the beam in your own. Look, worry/anxiety is part of life. It's non-productive and can lead to all sorts of health risks. And we do it because we can. It seems we are the only specie that worries about we cannot control and continue to worry even the situation has changed. How illogical is that?

And yet in many ways it is one of our strengths. Our concerns for ourselves and others lead us to extraordinary actions. And we grow and evolve. It's fantastic. So I suggest you decide what you can and cannot control and develop ways to manage your anxiety.

Happy to discuss this further if you would like.

Mary