Every year my social anxiety and fear drive me crazy on cup day, its one of the worst days of the year for me.
Each year I long to just be part of the group and be happy like everyone else, and every year fear drives me to hide it out and observe (or not) from a safe distance.
Right now I am so mad and frustrated with myself for being an idiot yet again, if I was a screamer I'd be screaming. Now I'm calming down I just feel so sad and alone and socially worthless.
Nuts huh, is it just me. Anyone else?
