hey, i dont know where to start, but im completely lost, feeling like i dont have any choice for my well-being, health, studies and life.
Im turning 26 later this year, and wanting/planning to go back and finish my studies, but one of big main problems is that no one, and i mean no one in my family ever listens to me.
For a bit of background, i have failed cert 3 screen and media (digital) since 2016, due to overloading on stress, depression showing up, and some bad childhood memories (and there are a lot of bad memories). Last year, i had to quit the course, yet again, as i had a stomach issue (physical health issue), and my mum, dad and sister told me that i shouldnt have applied for tafe last year, due to being in hospital and having this stomach issue for 6 months (i had surgery in december to fix it; the issue is still there), and planned for this issue to happen... i have no idea where that comes from, i mean, how does anyone plan for their car to have flat tyres? both my dad and sister told me that i shouldve continued going into tafe, while severely unwell (i was throwing up almost everyday, due to the stomach issue), and that its not their fault that i ended up having to go into hospital (not sure where they get that from, I never said it was; i had to force my mum to take me into hospital, for this to be fixed (she said she could fix it; mums not a doctor).
It's 3 months since having surgery, and i feel well enough to be on my own and study again. One of the big problems is that i moved to my mums, who lives in a small town in W.A.. Mum doesnt want me to live on my own, or go and study (her reasoning is that im too "stupid (i had an I.Q test in high school and being told my I.Q is 75...)", and since i always ask for help, failed the same tafe course multiple times im unable to "think for myself/use my inititive"... we all need help, now and then, some need it more than others (i have aspergers syndrome/high functioning autism, so i need a fair bit of help, and i tend to ask my friends for help more often than not, which annoys her as i go to others for help, not her).
It doesnt help matters that the nearest mental health services, that can help with my mental issues, are back in the city, my depression has shown up in force, and lingering (im doing the best i can to ignore it), and suicidal thoughts have shown up
i dont know what to do
