Anxiety with depression --jeeez when does it stop.

[criz]

Hi

I'm new here I'm 46 married with 2 kids. When I was 15-16 years I started to notice i used to get very nervous around new friends or large groups. Over the years it has not got much better it has led me into depression which escalated when my brother died in 2003.

I have only started taking anti depressants 2 days ago can you believe. It was either start medication and see if it helps, or follow through on the thoughts I've been having.

Ive come to a point in my life where I have lost two off my best friends , that I have not seen now for nearly 4 years and cannot seam to get enjoyment out of anything anymore, I hate being around people.

I worry about every little thing and the big things send me into a deep depression. Ive been off work for a week (work in the building industry) now and don't want to go back.

Im beginning to think pretty dark things, as this is no way to live. Ive got through the past 4-5 years just worrying about my kids

I don't really know where I'm going

[jelly12]

Hi criz,

I think you have made a great step by starting to take medication and to seek support.  I have had depression for nearly 20 years now and taking medication and having regular counselling has helped me to be able to work and to live a productive life.  Do you have a counselor who you can discuss your thoughts with?

I found that setting small goals each day can help with distracting from worrying thoughts and also with getting back to work or whatever needs to be done in a step by step way. Getting out of the house even for short periods of time to exercise, take the dog for a walk or look at the shops can help.

It's a hard road to travel but taking small steps is a start to finding direction.