Anxiety, tears and dizziness

[Bodey294]

Hello, it's been a while since I last posted. Usually it's within the depression category but feel like this is etiology. Anyway, I'm currently is my room and I'm listening to my roommates (three girls) laughing and having a good time, socializing on the other side of the wall in the dinning room. I feel my heart rising and muscles tightening and then I need to go to the bathroom. As I go out into the dinning room to then get to the bathroom I get dizzy (it's not enough to make me pass out but like a miniature swirl in my head that sometimes makes me have to stop walking or I freeze to get my head back to normal). Anyway I got there and the door was closed so I assumed someone was in there so I tried to open it but then I tricked myself into thinking it was locked so I didn't put the door open far enough. Now I'm back in my room. I continue to here them having a good time talking, then I cry because I know I'm never that social and I feel lonely and now I'm in bed under covers writing this long paragraph and I just want to be heard and so that's it. By the way I saw a therapist about my depression couple months back but I never have talked about social anxiety.

[Dreamwish]

Dear Bodey

I've just joined the forum so I don't really know what I'm doing yet lol, but I thought I'd post a reply and hopefully help a little bit. I have depression and anxiety and have had them for a long time, the depression since childhood so I can understand how the social stuff is really hard isn't it!!? It might be time to book another appointment with the therapist if you connected with them or you could try another therapist. I've had about a year of psychotherapy and it's been one of the best things in my life I couldn't recommend it more but you have to have the right therapist and connect with them for it to work properly. A visit to the GP would probably help as well he might be able to help with a mental health plan (which gives you a number of free visits to a therapist) and they can recommend perhaps medication or different ways of helping you with the depression and anxiety. I have trialed a couple of anti-anxiety and anti-depression meds so that might be something you could try if you feel your anxiety/depression is becoming debilitating. You've been so brave to post about what you're going through (even though atm you're hiding under the covers :P) For me its nice to know people out there are also hiding at home on a friday night struggling with themselves instead of socialising with people! I wonder if you would be able to maybe go out to your roommates and say hi, pretend you're getting a drink from the fridge, a few minutes of small talk? Luckily you're at home so you can politely exit the room if it's too much for you. Just a thought of course, I for one avoid my housemate as much as possible haha but yes it is lonely to avoid people and much harder to talk to them.

Regards

dreamwish

[blondguy]

Hi Bodey

I feel your pain. You can label it 'social anxiety' but sometimes its just our confidence my be flagging too where friends are concerned.Ive had acute anxiety disorder and then depression since 1983 when I was 23.

Opening that door would have painful....I hear you. Sometimes when our self esteem is crap (and anxious) this would be expected.

I am sorry for your tears and your pain Bodey

Self expression isnt an issue for you. I have relatives and some friends that dont have the strength to write on here. You have, and good on you....Nice1 🙂

my kindest thoughts for you

Paul

[Bodey294]

Thank you for replying Dreamwish and welcome to the forums! Glad your here 🙂 ,

Yeah I use to be on medication (SSRI) for my depression but I been of it for a bit now. I think I should see a therapist or see a gp to set up a mental health access plan. It just seems like I go through cycle of anxiety then depression... then I feel like I'm doing okay, then anxiety, then... guess what... you guessed depression. Thank you for your support though. I hope you find this place welcoming 🙂

[BballJ]

Hi Bodey294,

Firstly, welcome back to the forums, glad you came back when you were in need of a little support.

Social anxiety is a tough one, and one i personally am glad I do not have to deal with as I see the pain it causes people like yourself. My question is, if you went and sat in the dining room with these girls and attemped to join in their conversations, would they welcome you? I know it's a hard step to even do that but maybe just trying to join in, may help you and alleviate some of the anxiety.

As Dreamwish said above, it may be worth going back and speaking to another psychologist, as they may not of got to the root of the reason why you have anxiety and depression, i apologise if I am wrong, Just not sure you went through everything with them.

My best for you,

Jay

[Hardy524]

I too understand what your going through. Mine is not so much social anxiety but I do get dizzy a lot of the time. I was at my best friends house a few days ago with my son, which should have been a totally safe environment, but I was so dizzy and trying so hard to hide it and ignore it. I guess all I can say is stay positive, this too will pass. Keep seeing your therapist and GP.

[DorianGray]

I think it's good you identified that you "tricked" yourself at one stage thinking the door was locked. That's something that keeps me going, is being able to identify that I too "trick" myself into thinking certain things when I know the opposite is the truth.

My story is very similar to yours, I too was on medication and have been off it for awhile now and I think the hardest things is doing things the second time around.

I'm only new to this forum and what I want to hear is someone just saying to me stay positive and everything will be ok, so that is what I will say to you. Life can be tough at times, but seeking help and overcoming what troubles us most defines us, not the tricks our minds play on us.