Hey guys, so I am in a place where are currently in COVID lock down and I have anxiety.
First of all, I just want to say that if your anxiety has been triggered by COVID, I just want you to know that I am with you in spirit. I understand how hard it is to think rationally when people are panic buying and everything... and I just want you to know I support you.
Where I live, we have just gone into another lockdown and we have to wear masks to walk outside. There has been insane panic buying... and I just don't know how to do my part, to encourage people that we live in a SUSTAINABLE country, and we don't need to bloody panic! The panic is infectious and I don't know how to get my city to stop being so silly ... I suppose I can't control other people. It's just really frustrating.
Today, I was really anxious to go to the shops cause I ran out of milk. But I called a help line and managed to get to the petrol station, and buy milk and toilet paper.
I am really proud.
I also managed to get my living room table clean even though I am stressed and sleep deprived. I'm proud about that too.
I am a disability support worker (part time) and I am really grateful because I am getting paid to stay at home and not work for five days, which I think is a huge blessing. Perhaps God knew that I needed a break, haha.
I am trying to surround myself with positive and relaxing activities during the lock down, like my mindful coloring and I have a jigsaw puzzle ready to do if I get bored.
I am trying to stay relaxed but sometimes it's hard ... last night I had a dream that our beautiful country god invaded and that we were at war, i woke up terrified and i had to cling onto my husband.
COVID just messes my anxiety up so bad... and if it messes you up too just know you are not alone.
Love and peace.
~Butterfly 💙
