Anxiety/panic disorder

[Pumpkin777]

Hi guys I’m new at this so go easy on me I don’t really know what to say, but I’m hoping maybe someone out there may have some tips and advice or may be able to share their story with me, I recently quit my job due to being under a lot of stress, I have had anxiety since I was about 13 I’m now nearly 20 and have been diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety.. I ended up quitting my job because my anxiety started getting worse and worse and I began to have panic attacks as soon as I entered work and my work place couldn’t deal with me not being able to focus on my work, after I quit my job I began to experience more and more panic attacks out of no where like going down to the supermarket or just sitting at home with my partner, situations which I have been in about a million times in my life time, but I couldn’t seem to understand why they’re happening now, like what has brought on these panic attacks to start happening? Anyway I began to take new medication and got a medical certificate from my doctor saying I am unfit for work due to my anxiety and panic disorder, this was 2 months ago I’d say, and I’ve began to notice that it is not seeming to get any better... my anxiety seems to take over just a bit more every day. Last night I got very upset due to these horrible thoughts I get in my head which are like really disturbing things I would never think of doing but because they’re so horrible I’ve been to scared to tell anyone due to them being so awful, which leads me to become more and more over whelmed, I ended up telling my partner last night as it was driving me crazy and I did some googling about anxiety and disturbing thoughts and found that it is quite normal to have them, but my boyfriend doesn’t suffer from such extreme anxiety as I do so I still felt really embarrassed to tell him about it as they were so horrible, but I had to get it out!!!! I have lots of positive people around me, but I felt maybe if I posted something on here maybe someone could help relate to me and perhaps give me some tips on how they deal with it, that’s not really the whole extent to my anxiety and mental health issues but a breif outline of what kinda happens, any advice i would really appreciate, like I said I’ve got a few people to talk to but I’m a very quiet person that bottles things in so if anyone else out there is or has been like that I’d really like some tips on how you’ve over come bottling stuff up and being more open about your feelings!. Thanks!

[blondguy]

Hi Pumpkin777

Welcome to the forums and good on you for having the courage to post too! I was also new 2 years ago when I joined the forums and very scared at the time...seriously

The people on the forums are gentle as well as non judgemental.....The forums are a rock solid place for you to post

You are very proactive with your health Pumpkin by seeking the advice you have. You have also had the strength of mind to accept medication as a platform on which you can heal too

Just out of respect for you Pumpkin....I used to have chronic anxiety which did go away.....only after I had super frequent help from my GP and my psychologist..(My GP I saw monthly who was a legend)I have also been on antidepressants for anxiety + depression for 21 years now.

Can I ask how frequent you have had counseling for this awful anxiety? I understand the pain you are going through Pumpkin777 and its not a good place to be in

Thankyou again for being a part of the forums.....All I do know is that having weekly/fortnightly counseling (and a huge mega cry....vent... in front of our doc/therapist) works wonders

I hope you can post back when convenient for you Pumpkin...there are many people on the forums that also feel your pain too

My kind thoughts

Paul

[Pumpkin777]

Hi @blondguy! Thankyou for your response! It is really nice ( well not nice if you know what I mean) that I am not alone, sometimes I feel that some people don’t understand which is not their fault but I find it hard to communicate things across properly so Thankyou for your kind words!

I started to see a psychologist around 2 years ago my mum was seeing someone also and had mentioned that she was quiet worried about my mental health being that her and my dad had just split up and it wasn’t a very smooth separation, so her psychogist refereed me to a lady! I had seen a few people before then but found it super uncomfortable and didn’t really feel good about sharing how I feel with them but the lady I began to see with the best’ I really enjoyed seeing her and I felt so comfortable with her but unfortunately she decided to take another career path last year and is no longer my psychologist so at the moment I am waiting on a appointment at head space to see someone there that hopefully I can feel comfortable with, I used to see her once a week and because I haven’t seen her in so long I have so much stuff bottled up! I talk to my mum a lot she is very helpful with my anxiety and so understanding which is good, but sometimes I’d like to hear from others, about any tips they may have, as I feel like it isn’t getting any better it’s getting painfully worse, and seem to have lost a lot of my confidence lately, which I’m struggling with, my partner tells me I’m perfect and beautiful all the time but I just don’t feel it at all at the moment, and it’s really getting me down feeling this way... 😕

cheers- pumpkin

[blondguy]

Hi Pumpkin

Thankyou for posting back!

To lose a good counselor/psychologist is pain for sure. I have also had some 'disappear' on me too and what makes it hard is the relationship/communication that we have established

You are amazing for having been so proactive with your health Pumpkin and good on you!

Can I ask if you have a GP that you are comfortable with? They can be a huge help as they have better training where anxiety is concerned nowadays compared to when I went through it in the 1980's

Im sorry that you are feeling so down at the moment. You mentioned that you have a terrific partner that is super supportive which is always a huge bonus when we have anxiety.

I still see my GP every 4 weeks for a 'fine tune' and he is really supportive

You are not alone pumpkin777

My Kind thoughts

Paul