anxiety ? Not sure but any advice would be great

[Macca1]

Hi

this is my first post, so not sure what to expect. About 6 years ago I was married to an unfaithful partner. I wasn't aware of what was happening until she phoned me to say she was leaving me for another man. I took it bad and hit the drink to take the focus of our empty home.

But that was then. I am now remarried to a lovely women and we have a beautiful daughter. 

I have been diagnosed with depression recently and am on some meds to help, but just today I think I had a bit of a panic attack doing something ( trimming horses feet- I'm a farrier) that I do on a very regular basis. In my mind I kept thinking I'm going to stuff this up... Ridiculous for me!

last Saturday was my nieces birthday and I was having a dark morning ( crying for no good reason) I tried to go to the party but found myself almost crying ( again no reason) and I ended up driving away so no one would see me.

not sure what brought these negative reactions at all !

any suggestions would be appreciated. I'm feeling like I'm falling apart!

[white knight]

Hi Macca,

I dont know where the relevance is of your previous relationship and the drinking. You really should have moved on with that by now. You have married and got a child, your previous life should be a distant memory now.

As for your recent anxiety it is definitely a time to visit your GP. Medication can help with this. Often we can become fragile, lose confidence in things we once automatically did. Maybe you need to recharge your batteries with some time off.

Discuss it in depth with your wife and seek professional advice. You in the least need a relaxation plan.

Tony WK

[pipsy]

Dear Macca1.  Sounds to me as though you're going through a period where you're unsure of what you're doing and why.  How long have you been a 'farrier'.  Maybe a change of job might help.  Is there something else you'd like to consider doing?  Sometimes when we're stuck in a rut (even though we don't realize it), this can bring on feelings of worthlessness.  Even going to your nieces party would've almost been 'mission impossible' because of your feelings of inadequacy.  Maybe you just need 'time out' to re evaluate your life.  I would definitely look at meds to help relax you, but also look at 'time out'.  You got kicked in the teeth, that's in the past, sure, but sometimes the past re surfaces in the most unpleasant ways.  Going to your nieces party may have brought back unpleasant memories, especially if your wife played up while at parties.  Definitely discuss it with your wife, does she know about your previous wife?  Seek professional advice as WK suggested.

Look after yourself.