Anxiety journey

[PJ89]

Hi all,

I'm looking for some help as my anxiety journey has been long rough so far

I am 30 yrs old (male) and I've had anxiety my whole life but around 4 years ago it became so prevalent that it changed my life for good. There was no direct cause of why my anxiety had gotten so bad, it just happened out of the blue. I was working full-time - unfortunately I lost my job around this time last year - no small thanks to my anxiety problems (unfortunately companies can work their way around to weaselling you out of a job when you have MH issues).

Over my adult life I've been on a variety of different anti-depressants, most of them having little effect. When I was 18 I first started having bad panic attacks and was prescribed medication for a little while until they settled down. I've been through a variety of doctors and have finally settled on one I'm okay with. Currently I'm on a combination of medications setup by my previous doctor but we're working my way off of it. In addition I also take another medication (for impulsiveness as I've had 3x suicide attempts), a medication for blood pressure (I have a high heart rate which contributes to my anxiety) and am allowed to have another medication as needed (they don't really seem to work so I save them for when I leave the house).

I've seen therapists and psychologists who insist that there must be triggers to my anxiety - I don't believe there are. I wake up anxious and am anxious every second of the day and it gets worse when I have things to do. I'm lucky that I currently live with my father as he helps a lot - as stupid as it may sound, sometimes when I'm making dinner I get anxious that I'm going to mess it up.

I saw a psychiatrist last year (recommended more therapy and some drugs) and quoting directly from my psychiatrist report I have "generalised anxiety disorder, panic disorder, and dysthymia/persistent depressive disorder on the background of cluster B personality traits."

I was also sent to an endocrinologist to see if my hormones were out of whack and they were but they believe this is the fault of one of my medications.

I've been on six different medications.

I guess my question would be where would you go from here?

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

It sounds like your anxiety is quite debilitating and you are left in no mans land.

Can I suggest some more self help methods?

Immediate strategies- Introduce new relaxation methods permanently on a daily routine as mentioned in a thread at the end of this post.

Camping even just overnight away from cities and people

Get a hobby/sport/barracking for a team

Attend motivation lectures

Medium term-

A move to the country if not already there, a town of less than 5000 people

Change of career with your health in mind eg no shift work/customer service

Review relationships, remove all toxic people

Buy a pet, a caravan/rooftop tent

So listed below is some threads you can insert into the search bar at the top of the page. Essentially they collectively explain how I got rid of anxiety completely.

Anxiety, how I eliminated it

He helped me for 25 years- Maharaji

worry worry worry

Cheap recovery idea- camping

A move to the country- why not?

Fortress of survival

Fortress of survival part 2

Fortress of survival (workplace)

Distraction and variety

30 minutes can change your life

The best praise you’ll ever get

Want to be a hermit?

A fair bit of reading there that will give you some foundation of ways you can help yourself overcome some/all symptoms. I’d like to point out that I still do my relaxation techniques after 33 years, just prior to sleeping.

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TonyWK